This is the last day i plan on using this computer. Hopefully, ill never pick it up again.

 Possibly one of my last LJs, once i go dark ( Read more... )

After all the soul searching i possibly could have done by myself while staring at walls and battling internet and game addiction, it dawned on me that i changed completely at one point in time.

It would be easy to blame this on Cynthia, but that would be a little childish.
It was my decision to spend more time with her and then start absorbing her ( Read more... )

This is a place holder untill i can find a better way to communicate like i used to. since ive deleted solid integrity, i havent been able to put any thoughts down, not like there were any. I ll make a new one soon, if i make any progress with this project.

Im a pretty pathetic individual now, after all this time has passed, but i decided to face ( Read more... )

Tired of this juvenile shit, arent you?
Time to live up.

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I guess this has made kitty and i closer, so im not regretting it.
I was being childish thinking about my feelings alone.

I want the group to work again.
I dont feel like a degenerate when im with you guys. I dont wanna lose that.
But all the wanting in the world isnt gonna do a thing.
There has to be cooperation.

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We all learn from our mistakes.
My mistake: Assumption [mostly].

And ive learned.

Anything that does not kill you makes you stronger. At least i hope. Im gonna need that strength if i wanna stay sane ( Read more... )

Wow, its a new morning, im thinking much straighter, but im still feeling sieged about yesterday ( Read more... )

Id like to apologize for my barbaric behavior today. I hope it didnt bother you guys all that much ( Read more... )

Balls are being grown, as we speak.

Soon.