So I made a new lj name...since for some reason my lj has been getting fucked up lately...the new lj name is _beforetoday ( Read more... )

So before Thanksgiving things were good with me and Derek ( Read more... )

So I talked to Heather today. It made me want to cry. I hate it when you get that pain in your chest like your heart just got stabbed. I'm not repeating what was said or why it felt like that but it scared me. Don't ever do that again Heather, promise me? I'd die without you ( Read more... )

Derek said in his lj that he might move in with his dad...:'( I don't want him to, but I guess if it'll make him happy. But then I'll NEVER NEVER get to see him. This all sucks dick so much. I hate it. Sorry that this was a really short and pointless update to you. But it means EVERYTHING to me. and it's not pointless to me. Im gonna go. I just ( Read more... )

Okay so I know that I said that I wasn't going to update anymore. Well if you know me at all you know that I usualy just say things and never usualy follow through with them. So here is another update for you all to read, and laugh at ( Read more... )

Im over at Lauren muthafuckin Ashley and Megan's house. And Ive had a blast today. These girls are amazing! They are going to be here for me, I can tell ( Read more... )

So first off happy birthday to my two best friends ( Read more... )

( I think I feel an appointment with Dr. Madamala coming up...and me back on meds...and an increase in mgs...:'( I hate this but if it's what I need to be happy, then so be it... )

So yea shitty that I feel so dead inside...in a way I kinda want school to come...ha Me, Carlie, said that!? weird. Something must be wrong.! guah I hate my stupid age...I wish things would just simply get better... :( !

Here's some lyrics from the band Brand New...I love them...they help put me at ease...

( Some Brand New lyrics.... )

Turns out Mark CAN go to the Sox game tomorrow...I was really looking forward to going...just me and my mom. Just another thing for me to get my hopes up and throw them at the floor. The way my life story seems to always go...! :(