I'm not meant to be happy.
The world doesnt want it that way.
The world hates me.
I don't know what I did to piss it off so badly.
I don't think Im a bad person.
But its offical, I'm not meant to be happy.
The world will not cooperate.
I fear it never will.
Im planning on being awake as little as possible until further notice.

What. The. Fuck.  ( Read more... )

This weekend was pretty fun.
Saw mere, bill, and marie friday night.
We were supposed to go bowling but that got messed up.
I drank energy drinks which actually made me tired eventually.
Saturday I hung out with shauna for the first time in forever.
It was really really good seeing her again.
Took her out to dinner..haha.
Then we hung out with kels ( Read more... )

God. Strawberry gatorade and chips ahoy dont mix.
Actually strawberry gatorade is horrible to begin with.
I just remembered i have milk in my fridge! yes!
Ive been going to the gym. Except I didnt go today.
Ill prob go at some point this weekend with Kar or something.
And ill keep going next week (hopefully)
Its FRIDAY! YESSSSSSSS!
I thought it ( Read more... )

This week is going by so fucking slow.
I was hoping it wouldnt...but it def is and its pissing me off a lot.
Im so bored with everything.
Same shit everyday.
Classes, schoolwork, gym.
So fucking boring.
I dont want to be here.
Im feel so irritated right now.
I cant get started on my stupid fucking project i have to do.
Im watching one tree hill ( Read more... )

The highlight of my day was when a random mid-aged women showed up in my human development class and used the term "carpet-muncher" to describe a lesbian.
It was pretty incredible.

I realized tonight I don't know who I am anymore.
Im not the same person I used to be.
I don't like it at all.

Happy not really but kinda sorta  9  months yesterday!
I love you very much.
And I miss you tons! Come home nooooooooooooooow!

6 more days until kim is back at home. Until I can actually get in contact with her again.
Could be as long as 11 days until I see her again.
Raaar!
Im missing her so much.
And Im really scared shes not really missing me much at all.
I had a dream she was coming home and could see me and she didnt even care.
Im really scared this will happen in ( Read more... )

I finally started my period ( Read more... )

This weekend wasnt the greatest ever.
I was so excited to go home.
My fault I fucked it up.
I dont know why I do these things.
I dont make any sense.
I was extremely happy to have seen kim though.
I missed her SO much all last week.
Shes the sweetest most amazing girl ever. Shed do anything for me.
So would I for her. Not that I do a very good job ( Read more... )

Apparently 100% of people who have done the thing in my last entry...
Think I am unhappy.
Uh, I think thats probably a bad thing that so many people can clearly see that.
Hmmm. I didnt think it was that bad. or that noticable.
I dont feel like I actually ACT unhappy enough for so many people to think that.
Sometimes I dont really think Im that ( Read more... )