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1 week since we broke up
We broke up ( Read more... ) -
i didnt feel a thing
Nothingness. Angelo sent me a picture of their facetime. And I didn't feel a thing. Normally if I saw my friends in a hospital situation, I would feel sadness and the pain they were in. This just made me mad that I had to hear about him. I want his existence erased. I don't know if that means I don't care if he lives or dies, but I don't care to ( Read more... ) -
Love is patient, love is kind..
If I want this relationship to survive, I have to start practicing unconditional love by keeping no record of wrongs. -
UN-FAMILY UNIT
Bad dream: started with me and Ryan in a room with a couple that was having sex next to us. I’m about to start our life in our new house with the family unit. Ryan doesn’t help to tell the couple to stop while we are there, just bends over like a pussy. I walk away with this uncomfortable feeling but swallowing it and accepting that this is just ( Read more... ) -
LOCKED OUT
I forgot my own password to my journal, and then this damn site wouldn’t help me retrieve the damn thing!! As in, every time I went to the recovery page, I guess it just wasn’t iPad or iPhone friendly, but the buttons weren’t working. I fear the day livejournal will become obsolete and the site does away with the whole thing - and my entire life of ( Read more... ) -
THE DOCTOR VISIT
Much to my relief, Alexis has told me she’s undergone the same abnormal Pap smear procedures a few times, including the colposcopy. Deb said her daughter also went through the same thing and the tests almost always came out negative ( Read more... ) -
CLOSE MY EYES
Sam is giving me words of encouragement while I have another emotional bout, which is right around the time I started Week 1 of the pills a month ago (I was noticing a pattern in hormonal changes). I’m complaining that unfortunately Kevin is the apparent target of my depression and anxiety ( Read more... ) -
MICRO-ANGRY
I just realized some things ( Read more... ) -
WSET 3
I am so exhausted at the idea of having to read my WSET 3 textbook. I am learning this shit from scratch all over again and I just don’t give myself the time to do it. There has been infinite time for me to study this book front to back but I’m being stubborn ( Read more... )