when you're gender is shifting it's hard to pick an outfit for a wedding. even when those marrying are queer and different themselves. how do I want to portray? will I be accepted with this new hairstyle?  what will people think of the new me ( Read more... )

have you ever fought for love?
or do you think it's better to be noble? a gentleman?
walk away?

what if you know?
can you ever really know?
how?

do you walk away because you can't convince?
how easily do you give up?
this is not a theoretical question.
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how hard do ( Read more... )

1. you come out of your house and a person walking on the sidewalk stops to tell you how lovely your garden is. long enough to point at and touch particular flowers. and confuse you with friendliness ( Read more... )

two more days of baking.
then I'm done for a while!
good g-d! how much baking more can I do!
oy vey.

not that anyone reads this, but just in case-- I have some travel plans on the summer horizon. maybe I could meet up wichu?

NYC June 19-26 ish. -- teaching 1 Knife Skills Class
Portland June 29 - July 14  --- I'm teaching 4 baking classes there! (think ( Read more... )

it's 2 am.
I need an intervention.

anyone?

a. plum blossoms snowing down, coating the ground and other leafy things below with snow dots ( Read more... )

i live in the bay area.
soon i'll be 39.
my apartment is too small for a party.
although I know a dj who will do a party for me.
i like delicious food but it does not need to be expensive.
in fact: i am capable of making my own bday cake
and have done it for many years.

i have a lot of friends
and I'm not even sure I want to get them all in one place.

do ( Read more... )

all windows are open. the treehouse fills with wind, warm like it's almost summer. it's the bay area, tricking us all again! tiny blossom petals snow down coating the sidewalk with more foolery ( Read more... )

does anyone want them or do they go in the garbage? behind the times by at least 10 years, as usual, I'm putting my cd's in a cloth notebook thingy and now I have a lot of empty cases ( Read more... )

my last night was a few hours ago ( Read more... )