honestly, i should be used to this. i dunno how to maintain this friendship anymore. i don't know how to have any more public verbal fights.  i need to start cutting people out even if they mean the world to me.

so drained. in every respect.

i need a platonic late night spoon friend. somebody i can call late at night to come over and spoon me.

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 i spent all day today applying for grad schools/writing essays/applying for financial aid.

i did take a break to make some vegan beet and beef stew. (which by the way, though insanely red, is amazingly tasty)

i may/may not have missed the dead line for financial aid.

things will be okay. i'm on a roll. i will get this shit done. i will try. and it ( Read more... )

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today, the 10 yr old bunny that i've been taking care of for the past 2 years (at my place of work) got put to sleep. his name was snowy.

it must be my overwhelming morbid side and obsession with death that made me look at snowy's dead body (when i KNEW i should not). i didn't walk away when he got lowered into the ground. i was the only witness. i ( Read more... )

 "poo-phoria (march 13th)

a natural high

the term "poo-phoria" comes from the experience of euphoria and ecstasy that you feel throughout your body during this special experience on the toilet. the exhilaration from this defecation, in large volume but varying in form, is often accompanied by goose bumps and even a little light-headedness as the ( Read more... )

 for buying this:


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 um...... yes.

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i'm just submerging myself in the 90's to prepare myself for the march 22nd show at great scotts.

 and a recap of this past week... real quick ( Read more... )

 * i am almost positive i am going back to school for a degree in elementary education. i just started to look into colleges and get applications. i think i want to be a teacher. i think i could be a good one. at least for a little while until i move onto something else..... thoughts ( Read more... )

 i know 99% of my favorite videos involve kids or animals. this is the best of both worlds. i'm sure you've already seen it.

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i am her mom. no she's not.

i have a show friday. i'm excited.
if you don't feel like burlesque go see sway/carolyn conspiracy instead. <3

and i'm leaving for florida in two weeks. i bought a new bikini. take that world!!!!!!!!
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