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Sometimes it hurts so badly that I can hardly breathe.
Sometimes I feel so empty inside that I want to explode.
Sometimes I think I made the wrong choice, and that this is going to be impossible.

But in those times, instead of letting the FEELING take over, like usual, I'm actually FIGHTING it!

What does this mean?

For once in my life I'm doing ( Read more... )

I broke up with Patrick on Tuesday. It was the hardest thing I've ever done. 
He says he's going to wait for me; it's not REALLY a break up as much of a REALLY hard, painful, horrible, severe BREAK. But we're not technically together.
I'm still in love with him, and I know that he's all I want. We didn't break up because of the fighting or anger...
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My relationships are so unfair ( Read more... )

I read this one someone else's profile, who had read it on someone else's.
It's perfect.
PERFECT.
It's me in 9 lines.

"a touch is a blow,
a sound is a noise,
a misfortune is a tragedy,
a joy is an ecstasy,
a friend is a lover,
a lover is a god,
and failure is death."

I don't know what's up with that other entry... I couldn't fix it. Sorry.

Well, I asked for it to stop, and it did. No matter how briefly this lasts, it's still... subsided.
It'll be back tomorrow. That's the part that frustrates me. This moment of "peace" is fleeting.
Today, at my counselor appointment I said I was seemingly going through the stages of grief.
I'm in the anger stage right now.
I'm finding it really ( Read more... )

Fuck ( Read more... )

border="0">  Disorder  Rating  Paranoid Personality Disorder:  Very High  Schizoid Personality Disorder:  Moderate  Schizotypal Personality Disorder:  Very High  Antisocial Personality Disorder:  High  Borderline Personality Disorder:  Very High  Histrionic Personality Disorder:  Very High  Narcissistic Personality Disorder:  High  Avoidant ( Read more... )

I'm so tired ( Read more... )