I've been told that I'm a hard person to get to know. I don't deny it. I have more friends then I can handle but the people who actually know amount to a little more than a handful. I've always been this way, an introverted loner. I can't say that I'm particularly happy this way, It's just who I am. I've gone through too much to depend on people, ( Read more... )

people are complicated. that's why we love them. that's why we hate them.
relationships (of every sort) are even worse. how do we define whose important to us and why? what makes one friend more important? what makes the love you feel for one person stronger than the other?

somedays you can't help but wonder if you have it all wrong..

tattoo number two. completed.

I don't think I've ever come to the terms with the fact I was adopted until well I don't know when, but recently. And even so I don't think it's something that one accepts but one realizes. Nowadays when people ask me about my heritage I don't lie and say that I'm German because while my family is my blood just well isn't. I'm not. I say I'm ( Read more... )

you know what sucks? this is a livejournal and yet I still can't write what I'm thinking because people are so self-centered that they'll read it and automatically think about themselves. How does this affect them? What does this mean? But not actually caring about me. That's the problem with people. It's all about them. No one knows how to ( Read more... )

hello from london!

Things that are running through my mind right now ( Read more... )

It seem's that recently the only thing I've been writing in here are personal triumphs and remembrances of the past. It's just something I have to do. This is another ( Read more... )

It's not that things are bad exactly. Life hasn't been in years. It's just that it's different and I admit firsthand that I don't (and probably never will) respond well to change. I like life to be stable, constant, concrete. I want to be able to call the same 4 people at four am that I've always called. But I don't call them anymore. It's not even ( Read more... )

its been:
6 months since i quit smoking
1 year since ive stopped hurting myself
2 years since ive stopped putting myself last
2.5 years since ive given up drugs.. well.. real drugs

i never thought i could do it. im proud.