This out pouring of emotions 
Releases that which was all to clear
And not well hidden
We journey farther away
Sending letters over phone lines
Lying through our teeth
They speak of insecurities
Like little white pills
For others to swollow
Drink it down with your pride

I think you hope for attention
Amidst the solitude
But tonight no ones listening
And your ( Read more... )

Doesnt really seem so special at the moment. My own sister isnt even going to go......she decided to just go home after choir......I miss her so much and she doesnt even spend my birthday with me....its just one day.....and she wont be here. I invited over 25 people thus far there are a grand total of 5 of us....including me. I appreciate the ( Read more... )

I wish it could rain forever sometimes. Not in the depressive sense, but in the sense that Iove to look out the window of my bedroom in this little apartment watching and hearing it fall. The stormy day gray (i believe I wrote a poem about that once...) Its my haven. My safe place. For as long as I can remember it has rained on my birthday. Fitting ( Read more... )

Why is it that we're only happy when we're both in the same relationship status? This is freakin retarded. Cant you just be happy for me? I feel like your angry whenever you come home now.....I dont want to be around it.....I love you to death and it hurts me to see you hurting. I know that your lonely....but theres nothing I can do about it. I can ( Read more... )

Here I was ready to pour my heart out to this thing...but I checked my friends page first and saw an entry that was like looking at my inner thoughts. Everything I was thinking and feeling was right there....in her words....my thoughts in her words. It was, to say the least, amazing. I wont reveal her, wont speak the name, but I just wanted to tell ( Read more... )

Rethinking things. Theres a start. Why am I up at 2:30am? Sleep isnt so easy right now. Its difficult to express but the frustrations are still there. Self focus is what I need. I need to look inward. So Hi self...its been awhile....and I think apologies are in order....so where should I begin?

One in particular I'll just choose to ignore. "You shouldn't go after/do things with your best friends most current ex." This rule is for jealous little people. Your relationship didnt work out so you have no claim over the other person anymore. Dont dwell on it ( Read more... )

Seems like everyone proclaimed this next week to be hang out with Brenna week. I dont normally need to write things down just so I wont over book myself. Tonight its dinner with amandas family and then a movie with Eric. Tomorrow I'm hanging out with Trevor after school and Brenton later on. Wednesday I'm supposed to have dinner with Charlotte. ( Read more... )

I wake up and cant wait to call you so I can spend time with you....which I havent been able to do in several days. So I call you and you dont really listen and tell me you cant concentrate on what im saying cuz you just bought alcohol and your friend is talking to you. THen you say it...your typical line "I'll call you back in like two seconds" ( Read more... )

This phone tag game is endless, the novelty is wearing....I wish you would just call me back ( Read more... )