This weekend was awful, especially Saturday. I do not particularly like worshipping the porcelin god. The only good thing that came out of it was that I got most of Saturday kid free. That and Chance took care of me. He is so great. He made me soup and broth when I could not keep the soup down. He took care of the kids the best he could. He even ( Read more... )

While going through some things, Chance found an old poem that friend wrote for me in High school. Unfortunately, the promises it make were unable to be kept as her mother decided one summer to up and move. Stephanie was not able to give me her new number and address ( Read more... )

Gods I am stupid. I really am. I believe I am pretty worthless as well. I am depressed, but then I have been that way since sometime last night.

Ok, this post is indirectly Chance's fault. He asked me to tape the Real World for him tonight. The first thing they showed was a phoine call between on of the cast members and her mother. The cast member, Aneesa, is a lesbian. Her mother does not approve. Aneesa called her mother because she wanted to talk about a break-up she had justhad. HEr ( Read more... )

Alright. What is the facination with reality shows? Chance seems to truly like them. Most of them I find annoying. Real World can be interesting at times, and every once in awhile I find that I enjoy Road Rules, but the ones like Combat Mission and Survivor are really stupid. Combat Mission can have some actual benefit to the people involved and if ( Read more... )

Well, I get a two week reprieve. We did not have the money for the dentist appointment so I had to reshedule for two weeks from now. Yay! I tried to take Eidheann's advice and look on the bright side. I told her there is NO bright side to the dentist. Sur my tooth aches a bit right now, but when I go to the dentist my whole face will ache for days ( Read more... )

For some reason today I find my self very depressed. Don't ask why because I do not know. It happens sometimes. I ust feel very down. I wonderd if it is that time of the month. I have noticed that while I am breastfeeding, I do not get my period, which is cool. I do, however, tend to get some of the other signs of a period though. I get depresion ( Read more... )

I have a habit of rereading books when I cannot afford to get new ones, or can't make it to the library. The other time I reread books is when I have not read something in a series for awhile, and something new comes out. Right now, i am rereading the Sword of Shanara. When I first read it, I remember that I could not put it down. It was amazing. ( Read more... )

Basically, I could not think of another title. My head is still screwed up. Here is a conversation I had with Robbie yesterday. I meant to save the rest of it as well, but forgot ( Read more... )

Some has recently come back into my life. I had a friend a couple of years ago that was my best friend online. he was fun to talk to and he helped me through a tuff time that Chance and I were having. Everything was going great until one of my other friends IMed me that Robbie had died. It turned out to be a cruel joke ( Read more... )