I enjoy the occational musical but am not completely obsessed with them. I enjoy playing them when I am in a a band or wind symphony because they are fun. I was listening to an advertising for Andrew Loyde Webber's musical 'Starlight Express' which is playing in some theater here in Boston. What the hell was he thinking when he wrote these lyrics ( Read more... )

In an attempt to ponder other things aside from the MCAT and sad current events I ended up coming to a sense of equilibrium with an issue that has always plagued my life and confidence... body image. It has been a frustrating ordeal being overweight most of my life with a lot of the childhood scars that accompany such a situation. I came to a ( Read more... )

Lola was one of the most jovial people you would ever meet. Her ethereal smile was infectious. You couldnt help but smile right along with her. She enjoyed her life so much and loved her family fiercely. When I close my eyes and think about Lola I see her happily in the kitchen and watch her express love in her cooking. She had so much passion. Not ( Read more... )

The day has started off a lot better than most. Spent several hours last night cramming for a Physiology quiz this morning that turned out in the best case scenario. Small beans in comparison to the total amount of points in the end but there has been times when I barely edged a grade with just one point. It bugs a bit when profs say that one point ( Read more... )

For the first time in a while I finally feel like myself again, in the sense that I have regained a sense of control over my life, my emotions, and just my self in general. There was so much touch and go for a while, but I think the Divine has swooped in to guide me before I lost everything I have worked so hard for. I think what people might call ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder whether the things you are meant to do and the person you are meant to be isn't really how thing are meant to become. I do believe in destiny but lately I'm not so sure I understood my destiny correctly. Instead I forced a future that I was not meant to have rather than what was intended. Is fate trying to steer me in the correct ( Read more... )

I originally started writing a journal that was attempting to be contemplative but that was fortunately interupted by a phone call from my sister Via. It is a very surprising thing to receive a phone call from any of my siblings because we are not the phone conversation type. I AIM often with my younger brother and occasional email and receive ( Read more... )

It has been an interesting month. I've cycled through a lot of emotions and have ended up in a place where I am more or less content with things. Actually content still feels like a strong word. I have a lot more peace of mind than a month ago.I don't think I am much of a control freak when dealing with things around me like people and the ( Read more... )

As I've grown up J and I have been developing and harnessing our emotional and intuitive capabilities. Not in the sense that we sit around a Quiji board, hold hands, and meditate on each emotion, though that would be interestingly amusing. "OOhhhmmmm sadness....OOhhhmmm happiness." Haha. I have naturally always kept my heart on my sleeve. It feels ( Read more... )

I went to my best friend J's sister's HS graduation a couple of years ago. It was a weird experience returning to that high school environment that I wanted so badly to move on from. All the superficiality and the intense desire for people who don't even matter anymore to like you. My stomach turned a bit as so many of those feelings returned ( Read more... )