I am, I believe that I am.

What I am is the question. I have tried so hard to be me but I don't know who that is anymore.

It aint use turning on your light babe,
I'm on the dark sde of the road.

We went out Saturday night. Got horrendously drunk and had a great time dancing. We really do have fun when we are together.
We ended up at my place and just fell asleep so fast. When we woke up we couldn’t remember much but we did enjoy some time before getting up.
She went home for a few hours and then came back with home made pizza and helped me ( Read more... )

I don't know how I feel today, too much going on I think but from tomorrow night I will be truly all alone.
She has been so supportive today and yet so sad. She wont tell me all the reasons why but i am there for her and i know she appreciates that, I hate seeing the sadness in her eyes but don’t want to pry any further. She will tell me all when ( Read more... )

My ex?wife moves into her own place on Sat and I will be truly alone. It's a weird feeling and I know it's the best thing for her even though she does not want that. It's cost me a fortune really but she needs to be free of me and to have her own happy life.
She came home last night and caught me fighting on the phone with the woman I love, she didn ( Read more... )

Big talk or no big talk We had a huge fight and I am over this. I can't be what she wants me to be.

Does every conversation end up about her and her new life. All I said was what I was having for dinner and she went on about what a great idea that was and how she would take 'them both' to the shops tonight to buy some stuff to do the same thing.

We had a big talk last night about feelings and stuff and how certain things hurt us. I actually felt really good having the talk as she really opened up about something I was not fully aware of. She said she had become worried that our relationship was only sexually based but I told her to think about all the other things we did and that the sex ( Read more... )

So I was lying awake all night again. Got up about 530AM.

I was so proud of myself today because all last night and today I had fought not to text her. About lunch time I suddenly felt very sad and had to go home. I was cracking up. I walk through the door and started crying again. This is getting ridiculous now. I have to hold it together every ( Read more... )

Today she came to work looking fantastic as usual but wearing a skirt which is rare. I couldn't take my eyes off her all day even though I tried.

I had not slept all night again, I had just laid there watching the red numbers on the clock move one digit at a time counting the minutes until 8 hours had passed and it was time to get up. I am fighting ( Read more... )

So I cracked last night and said I would pop round for a coffee. I knew I had to just try and do things that made her happy and she was so sad that I said I wouldn’t go round any more.

I arrived at the door and usually would have just walked in but as I walked up the path I felt physically sick. Ever step I took felt like I was walking through mud. ( Read more... )