well i haven't updated in a while so i thought id drop a couple lines..umm not much going on same ol stupid depressing life, um i have to go to a funeral on friday due to seans uncle killing himself...kinda not gonna be a fun day um friday night is heathers party thing i think it should be fun...well i don't have much to say...

well it has actually been an alright night i worked from 4 till about 9:30 on stupid research papers and note cards it was bogus but needed to be done and i think my new middle name has been procastanator...then i went and i took my dogs for a ride and dropped em off at home , then went over to nikkis to re-kindle those wonderful memories at bobs ( Read more... )

kind of a bad day, i couldn't get out of bed this morning, just for no reason like i was sad for no reason all i knew is that i that i didn't want to be around anyone,so i just slept all day. i hate being manic depressive all the time im never in the middle, all i did today was cry , and then get yellwed at for nothing by my parents..then joey ( Read more... )

So, I just got of the phone with Joey...im so happy.I will be flying out to Cali to see him in 8 weeks!!!The past weeks I have been hanging out with Nick ,Steve and Sam sometimes ben and them i have soo much fun ! Sean has been being mean and i can't stand him much, but yet we are still going out, and the point of it is? he came over the other ( Read more... )

so sean comes over at 1 and we fight the whole ENTIRE time, im so sad and i know he hates me or something.then i hung out with nick and sam and steve and hot guy and it was so much fun ,UNTIL nicky decides its a good idea to call sean.i wanted to die.because after a whole day of fighting that can't be good for nicky to call him...grrrrr.but he didn ( Read more... )

i haven't been in a down mood in a while but tonight ,tonight i am. i just off the phone with nicky and we have talked all night long. its amazing how long i can talk, kind of disgusting when you stop and think about it. i thought that i had a lot to say but instead i think i'll keep everything bottled up inside of me. its better off that way, ( Read more... )

welp , i had an alright day...i slept till 2 took a shower , got my books from school, went to the hospital and got new meds and was told i have fluid on my lungs and that i have bronchitous (sp i know), anyways its so stupid!!! i talked to sean on the phone like 2 times and then heather stopped by and then she brought the elephant to him that i ( Read more... )

well i am feeling deathly ill, and i was pretty bad last night also...but you know i was laying in bed all sad and sick and i couldn't fall asleep and all the sudden my nicky calls me , we had such a good convo like always! he really cheered me up.ps thats so hard to do! then today i woke up around 12:30 and went to school around 1 , the day was ( Read more... )

life is such bullshit , the one person that would do anything for me and loves me just as much as i love him, he always wants to hang out with me everyday and he leaves me today for 95 days. i can't take it. i have been crying since i woke up this morning in his bed.whats so great is that we are best friends and theres nothing there between us but ( Read more... )

i am so so lonely, no one is home and its a friday night , sean is out eating with his family and i don't think he will come over tonight i miss him so much , i wish i just would of suffered through school and work today so i could go out , but i think that maybe i needed a night off , cuz all i do is go go go and never stop to sleep eat or even ( Read more... )