I swear someone is determined to push me over the edge. I received a response letter from Shawn Michael Saturday. Normally I would not put the entire letter in here, but I want to be able to make this entire point. This is what Shawn Michael wrote me: ( Same ol' bs )

1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME ( Read more... )

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Things have been going pretty well. I haven't quite gotten a routine down yet with the new work schedule, but I am o.k. with that. As long as I am in bed between 10-11pm I am good to go.

A couple weeks ago some strange things kept happening, which had me completely freaked out. ( My psycho babble continues )

I absolutely have to make a doctors appointment to be checked out for these headaches. They are going to be the death of me, literally. Every single day, at least 2-3, and nothing seems to relieve them anymore ( Read more... )

Thursday 8/19 I became so sick at my day job when I began thinking about having to go to my night job that night. I almost threw up and was shaking and had a terrible migrain headache. I haven't felt that horrible in such a long time. I didn't understand at the time why I was feeling so sick. I thought that perhaps I had gotten food poisoning from ( Read more... )

There is this girl at work, who can't be more than 23 years old, if that..... and she is so freakin' rude and mean to people. I honestly don't understand how she manages to keep her job here. I asked her a simple question today and she looks at me like I am stupid and smarts off that "I just got here", as if I am suppose to know what her work ( Read more... )

I finally heard from Shawn M. Friday. I don't know if it done more good or more harm. I feel tormented inside. My feelings are going every which way and I have no idea how to make any sense out of them. I am so angry. Angry at him, at myself, at our inability to communicate properly. Everything is just so fucked up. Nothing seems to make ( Read more... )

At 6 o'clock this morning Kwanda comes into work and starts ripping me a new one. She had put a picture of her kid on the cubical and for the past 3 nights I have been taking it down and laying it ontop of the computer tower. I have this thing about pictures of people looking at me. It give me the creeps. I can't even have pictures in my ( Read more... )

In case any of you have been wondering about the odd change in my journal, please see my intro page and that should explain things a little better. Also, I wanted to give a brief explanation as to why I was gone so long. I know that it was a pretty normal occurrance for me to disappear for long stretches then return, but this time was a bit ( Read more... )