i didnt wake up crying like i did last time. but i do have a lump in my throat. i cant believe i got my ass dumped at the bar. now i get to sit through all of the "he wasnt good enough for you"'s and "its for the better"'s. i dont care. thats not what i want to hear. i want to hear that someone cares about me. that someone loves me. i feel like i ( Read more... )

im being paranoid. at least i hope.

but

today is a beautiful day. perhaps ill take a little walk before i go to work.

i feel like a fat cow.

why is food sooo delicious?

so im hanging out with rob again, and im not going to lie, im pretty happy about it. the time apart made me realize that i really did miss him ( Read more... )

i broke up with him.
i hate breaking up with people.
i cried myself to sleep only to wake up crying 7 hours later.

i know it was the right thing to do, but why does it hurt so bad? maybe its because i know that loneliness is around the corner.
i hate being alone.

im feeling pretty low today. i dont know what it is... maybe im coming to the realization that i have been leading on a really nice guy and thats a pretty shitty thing to do ( Read more... )

im feeling confused
and like a bit of an outsider in my own life

maybe ill eat some waffles and feel better.

i feel like i am falling apart, mentally and physically ( Read more... )

to be honest, im really confused about the whole situation. its hard to come to some sort of understanding when you dont know how you feel

pro's:
-amazing sex
-good sense of humor
-kind

con's:
-immature
-unmotivated
-introverted

what would you do?

all i can say is: thank god im not pregnant.