Now, I am not quite sure if thats an affirmation or anthing but its probably the closest at one I will ever get. Been doing alot of isolationist self/ pertecting you all from me stuff. Family is as always family which means if you know or have read any of my past posts is pretty much crazed/depraved/lacking in any real world logic... really not ( Read more... )

You really never get to see who a person truly is until they are angry. I like to think that everything we do every relationship we ever have what ever kind it is, we have for a reason, that we have it to learn something. I hope with time that I will figure out what the lesson of mine and J.C's relationship really was. As for now I am probably ( Read more... )

I was really amazed recently by the utter well lack of attention or lack of smarts shown to me by the people that manufactured my monitor. Normally I wouldn't take the time to go off about this cause I have been a Customer care rep and I know how crap can happen but then I am not going to bitch I am going to point and laugh so its a tad different ( Read more... )

After the longest most impossibly upsetting day since I cannot remember when possibly the most upsetting day in my entire life. Of which I cannot really rationaly put into words at the moment I am left needing a strong drink with I refuse to have. A shoulder to cry on which is not available. a hug which is not forth coming and a way to stop ( Read more... )

I wrote a letter to my father awhile back nothing unusual I write him all the time since he never bothers to tell me when he gets phone lines put in and what not. I usually write him every now and then telling him whats up, mostly for me cause at this point I have no remaining inkling that he cares. He only cares when we are in person and since ( Read more... )

I know that keeping tally of gold stars mentally of deeds done or what not is a very unhealthy and problematic thing to do. But everyone does it and I want to rant on about something going on right now so bare with me.

So the topic is my mother and the damages she causes.

So lets start with a pre-story so you can all fallow the upcoming rant.

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So its been alittle bit since I posted so just incase any of you wanted an update here goes. I have been working hard at my pledge to do absolutly crap this spring and let myself get healthy by destressing. and yes if you know who I live with you know that its work destressing. I cant wait until it comes time to open my pool I need to just float. ( Read more... )

I am doing ok as things go. the break is doing ok by me and I have been blessed with doctor that seems to know her stuff and this makes me happy. I cannot wait until the summer and I get to open my pool I have been just sitting and staring at the pool thinking dang it would be great to go swimming. But alas it is just a bit to chilly still. Not to ( Read more... )

I love MI in the beginning thralls of spring. I love the air the temperature the smell of it all most of all I love the wind. I keep waiting for the first real big thunderstorm they always relax and super charge me with great enlivening energy. Things have been going relatively OK with me. I have been working hard at trying to relax but as working ( Read more... )