I don't understand people who think some girls are "too skinny." I always thought that protruding bones, little fat, and a small waistline was perfectly normal...and gorgeous. I don't want my fat to roll over my pants, or my legs to jiggle when I run. Even if you are a "healthy" weight, you still have fat on you. And fat, in no way, is pretty. At ( Read more... )

Um...I ate. I failed. I'm a la-who-a-zer. Ha, sound it out ( Read more... )

Didn't go running tonight. I am one lazy girl. I'm thinkin' I'll be tryin' that Fruit2O soon here. A no-calorie flavored-water...heck yes! It's like my ED savior! Hopefully the flavor is good, not icky and medicine-y ( Read more... )

The Curtains Were Shut
Slammed the door, locked it, and
closed the curtains -
I thought forever.
But haunting fears persist in  
this disease they created.
It's a magic trick, I know it;
a dying body guards a dying heart.
What do they want from me?
I only aim to please men, women,
and children.
Sometimes the skin is drenched
in this point to prove them ( Read more... )

I'm not going to say I'm doing well or terrible or anything. I am just going running tonight, like I have done Wednesday and Thursday night.

That's it. Maybe someday my wish will come true.

Ok, so last night was good. Sort of. At least I was really, truly, genuinly happy for THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE! Because, yesterday I ate some breakfast, but it was healthy, and it was early morning so it had time to be worked off during the day. Um...then, I think I had a little binge fest, but it wasn't again healthy food. And then I was bad... ( Read more... )

Isn't exercise suppost to release endorphins and make you feel almost invicible-like? Aren't you suppost to feel rejuvinated and all-around better after exercising ( Read more... )

Yeah, today was bad. Actually...good, in a way. I got this sudden ana rush over me and I started to stress about food and everything, so by stressing, my hunger was supressed enough until...well, until after school when I was home alone. Then I failed, but at least I got to that point ( Read more... )

Today was supposed to be the first day of my Sacred Heart Diet. However...since I apparently just love being grotesquely fat and disgusting, I ate...and not just the S.H. soup either. Oh no, I had to eat with my friends at lunch, then go through Starbucks, THEN eat at work tonight! God help me ( Read more... )

So I'm doing the Sacred Heart Diet tomorrow. I mean, starting it tomorrow, and not stopping until next Sunday! Oh yeah! I was gonna ask you all this....!

IMPORTANT QUESTION!!!!I have S.A.T.'s this saturday, January 22. I need to do well on them (stating the obvious...)!!!! But, I also need to lose this weight ASAP! So how am I gonna stick to ( Read more... )