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Just got done with a great Easter lunch with my mom, step dad, dad, sister, my two oldest boys and myself and ollianna ❤️ Was just the distraction I needed from the terrible week I have had !!! I'm slowly slowly slipping back into my depression I know I need to leave him it just plain sucks man all I can do right now is pray pray pray!!!
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I don't know where else I can go to get this out. My problems are nothing compared to what some of you all are dealing with. They're not even really problems but it's the compounded and bottled experiences that hurt me nonetheless. I used to be more active in this community many years ago and have been pulled in this direction when something hurt ( Read more... )

I want to be numb I don't want to feel any more pain I don't want to argue with myself in my head if I'm truely this bad piece of shit needy bitch I'm told I am every day.... I'm sitting in the bath room cause I'm tired of trying to communicate and he gets in my face head buts me pokes me in head.... I'm driving myself nuts cause part of me knows I ( Read more... )

Ugh back to wanting to stay in bed all day again wish I had a ride and insurgence to get meds I hate feeling like this man :(. My poor Ollie belle had accident yesterday skinned her poor little nose :( he made me feel like such a bad mom about it but he doesn't know how hard my job as a mom is!!! I sure am glad she is feeling better today just ( Read more... )

My baby has cut in 3 teeth! She slept much better last night thank god! However the arguing on mine and hubby part continues. I sit and say nothing at all and I'm bitching.... I ask for help with the baby and all I get is smart ass answers and no help. Yes I am human I get over whelmed with my job as a SAHM but according to him I'm stupid for not ( Read more... )

So I just came to realize that I neglected to mention the main reason I decided to write again. Yes, the mental illnesses I am living with on a day to day basis play a major part. However, what I failed to talk about was the fact that I am now pregnant with my third child; pregnant and dealing with the sides effects of medication withdrawal, and ( Read more... )

So, this is my first entry. Being as LiveJournal doesn't consider "interests" as more than a four letter description, I have made the decision of posting them, along with my biography, here for all to see. If you take the time to read this, I thank you ( Read more... )

Well I guess the night was ok... We had company and I swear he snarled any Tim I looked in my friends husbands direction....which pisses me off what the hell he want me to do be rude and stand in a corner and not look or speak to anyone? 😡 Then when I would try to get on her to write or I got a response from notification on here he would smirk and ( Read more... )

Gosh dog I'm freaking tired of always being a problem guess maybe it is me I don't even know any more just know I'm tired of fighting all the time and getting know where man I don't know what to do any more I shoulda just got my shit this morning and left. Don't know why I'm so damn scared to leave. Guess I feel like I'll just cost my mom more ( Read more... )