the last entry was a need to document. everything.  and it showed absolutely nothing.  if only someone would understand.  but it's probably better if nobody does. including me.

"you live in terror of not being misunderstood."how true.  if someone would actually understand me, that means there's someone out there like me.  and the world should ( Read more... )

i keep thinking if if if if i did or if if if i didn't or if i tried.  what would have changed.  if she said and then i said if if if if ( Read more... )

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to end all sex surveys ( Read more... )

i have nothing left at home worth staying for. i feel sorrier for russ than for myself. i really don't mind my life right now, i just don't like myself when i'm around her. i don't like to complain, i don't like people feeling like they have to give me pity for this. so i really haven't told anyone. because nobody really actually cares. and ( Read more... )

this is the hardest thing
i've ever done
without telling anyone
and i did it all
on no sleepno counting sheep ( Read more... )

all this talk about words ( Read more... )

we couldn't have done with that fairy tale ending ( Read more... )

i couldn't be happier.

i'm enrolled, and almost unrolled.
and i love him.
and i have a stupid job that's cute.

go me.

life is typical.
and i'm happy about it. for once.

offer your congratulations.

j.b. gets out on the seventeenth.

scream in pleasure ( Read more... )