i want to go home

And it burns to know, that the only reason your still here
is to remind me of what i can never have, but still what hurts the most,
is knowing what would of been....

go to hell. Oh yea, if anyone remembers my rambels over me losing serena... get this: Jonathen hung out with ashley since my leaving, and she brought some random guy and was all over him. When he acually got a chance to speak to her, she admitted everything SHE said was a lie. Theres the proof i was telling the truth. But the sad part is, it ( Read more... )

write me letters damnit. or packages and pictures are nice peices of home. home which i miss very much.

Heres my contact info for cali

Kevin Eri, PFC

HQ BN 1ST MARDIV H&S CO S4

BOX 555381

CAMP PENDELTON, CA 92055

(863)5299074

"Hey, Eri, Why'd you joing the marine corps?" ... i dont know. i dont remember. i dont even know if i had a REAL reason to finally signing the papers. I had always wanted to do it when i was younger, since my junior year i had been up to the recruiter multiple times. Serena i think is why i didnt initally.... I was scared. scared of change. i ( Read more... )

Attemtion: i graduate My LOS BLESC course wed... i'm 3rd in my company. im gettin another award. um hooray..? something like that. I find myself un enthused for the reason i got my orders on monday. I'll be with first marine division, camp pendelton california. An infantry division. Infantry PT, infantry training, infantry deployment to iraq before ( Read more... )

Yes its the same dream as the one i had before recruit training except a little differant.... im with a sta/quick react team and we storm a building and theres a circle of men sitting down and slunched over. The rest of the guys go to the next section of the building but for some reason i try to talk to the dead men, knowing they had questions ( Read more... )

I keep having this dream... and it scares me.

i quit smoking. god i miss home. i get to see my mama bear in less than two weeks! im suprising her in VA, shes flying in to see my sister. I miss her. Shes got a box on the way up to me, hopefully i get it tomorrow, its got my box full of pictures, and letters and all that jazz, and my cameras!! hopefully she baked and sent some of that up too ( Read more... )

Yea, as motovating as that sounded, im not very motivated today. i wanna go home.... i miss home. i miss everything about it. I should be happy, mid terms are done with my MOS school, and i get to start college classes next month for photography and/or art n design... i got my lap top and scanner and camers on the way... i should be happy. the ( Read more... )