i guess what they say is true.
old habits die hard.
it had been a few months and
my scars were finally fading.
now i have 44 fresh cuts.
i need help and im never going to get it.

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i wish i could be brave.

in every way possible.

I just want my mom to say, "Sierra, I know you are depressed and I know that you need someone to talk to." And I want to deny the hell out of it because I can't just admit it to a real person. I want her to drag me to a therapist and I want her to force me to talk to them. I want to stop crying everyday, I want my mom still worry about me. I know ( Read more... )

On My Own

A contorted figure
A distorted face
I want to leave
I'm so out of place
At night I cry myself to sleep
And pray the Lord my soul to keep
No one gets it
No one cares
Try to help
They do not dare
So caught up in their own fears
So many tears over the years
I try to run
I try to hide
But the pain builds up
And burns inside
Once again I'm all ( Read more... )

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I don't know how I made it this far without you. Now that I almost had you and lost the chance for any future, I can't envision moving on without you. I saw myself wrapped tight in your arms, felt a sense of security I haven't experienced for quite some time. I saw all of my dreams build so high, only to come crashing down in the blink of an eye. I ( Read more... )

Genocide The noose still hangsWhere the lonely man criedHe strung it up thereAlong with his pride The pistol residesAlongside the bedWhere the beaten down boyLost his last thread The razor still hidesNext to the sinkWhere the scared little girlPressed down far too deep The bottle lay shatteredUpon the tableWhere the confused womanConfirmed her new ( Read more... )

haha this one sucks. wow im embarased to sign my name to it. i dont even know what it means yet. oh well it just came out so...tharr ya go.

Like a pheonix I will rise from my ash

Measure the distance from my present to past

Life has trouble, sorrow, and striff

Let it all go and reach to new heights

Wisdome comes with age

Age comes with time

Time ( Read more... )

Deteriorate the walls you have built so high

Please let me in

Allow me to hide with you

The outside world can be so cruel and merciless

I need your sanction to shield me

They adore you

Grant me a segment of your authority

Why do they not affect you

Their actions are demeaning

Yet still you refuse to relinquish

I envy your strength

For I ( Read more... )

Back to back
Forward they stare
Wondering how they ever got there
Guns are drawn
Eyes are bare
Five steps they'll take
Turn, aim, and shoot
Five, remember your wife
Four, Think of your kids,
Three, what will you miss
Two pray to God
One, turn
BOOM

-Sierra Ferrari