Yesterday I turned in my key to the Gresham house. I can't say that I was sad about it. It was really a relief. Now I have to wait and see how much they're going to ding me for in regards to my GIGANTIC $1000+ deposit. Fuckers better be cool or I will take them to court. I've done it before. I'll do it again ( Read more... )

So I left off in a rather bad place with Scot and how I was feeling. I thought I should give an update.
( house and Scot and stuff )

This rollercoaster is killing me ( Read more... )

I am still in shock. I woke up today after 3 hours sleep and I'm still in shock. I can't believe this is happening to me. I can't believe this is my life. I can't believe this. What is it?

( scot )

Emotions are taking over. Taking emotion as fact. Not sure how to escape this. I have this awful feeling that I'm setting myself up for a huge fall. He's going to walk away again. I'm going to be alone forever. So hard to step back. So lonely. So tired of being lonely. So miserable that I have no plan to fix this ( Read more... )

I am about to burst. My head is pounding. I am so nauseous that I can't stand it. No.. I'm not sick. So tomorrow I'm supposed to get my keys to my house. That's the good part.

The other part of this is that Scot is back in my life. Imagine your high school sweetheart showing up after 20 years. Not only that, he's semi-single and he lives in ( Read more... )

( Just a lot of rambling updates about what is new with me )

So.. I went out today and looked at houses. I looked 7 or 8 of the houses that I had found on my list of houses that I love and can afford. One, in particular, made me a happy camper.
( Just me gushing about my house hunting.. )

So... today was a really good day. I mean.. really good day. I'm so happy to be alive. Never, in a million years, if anyone told me that my life was going to turn out this way, would I have believed them.

( Happy thoughts and updates and stuff )

So.. I just looked at my journal. I had the page open and was going down the list reading the entries from my friend. I noticed one entry in which I was a little peeved and wanted to make a reply. This person always seems to have negative things to say.. to me, to others, to everyone. Not sure why I ever friended him and was thinking that I'd ( Read more... )