well things i guess are looking a little bit better right now....i made $55 at sonic today. dayna is on her way over. i have no problem with her at all, but i kinda just wanted to sit around and not do anything tonight, but she called and was like "i'm gonna go get my paycheck and come over," and it's kinda hard for me to say no. and i feel bad ( Read more... )

Man I'm so fucking broke right now. It sucks. and it sucks even more cause i know i shouldn't have been spending as much money as i have been. oh well....i gotta go to work here in a few minutes and make some big money i hope! i miss not having to give a shit. life sucks a lot sometimes. and it never goes according to plan.

happy labor day....

my new bedtime is 7 am and i get up around 4 pm. it's kinda nice like that...

yay...dayna's coming over!

ugh....everything was going great, and now, i'm screwed!

ughhh....i just owke up after 16 fucking hours of sleeping and my head is killing me! i really need to go take movies back to blockbuster, buy birth control, and get dishwasher soap, and do a shitload of laundry, but i have NO AMBITION to move.........but since i really need to do these things, here goes....

AAARRGH!!!!!!!!!

Fucking a I can't sleep. laying there thinking and thinking and htinking. i'm freezing cold and it doesn't help that htomas keeps pulling away. i know he's asleep but UGH! i feel like hsit,.  my brain is mush. i think i ahve permanent brain damage and that's why i'm stupid, i stutter, i can't htink, and i'm an emotional wreck!

Let ( Read more... )

this thought just occurred to me that i want things to go back ot normal, the easy way, but it's never been easy, i've always felt like shit, and i don't think i'm anywhere close to normal whatever that is. i don't know what the fuck is oging on in my head or in my heart right now, but i think i need something, i just odn't know what. i started at ( Read more... )

So I feel like absolute shit. Working outside in the heat is so draining! But Mike and Thomas are cooking steaks and mashed potatoes, so a good meal and a nap before I go to Showgirls for my FIRST NIGHT will probably help me feel better ( Read more... )

Last night was a pretty damn good night. I like seeing my friends get along.

I'm kinda bored. I want to do something, kinda. I don't know what. I might just go to bed, but all my blankets are in the dryer so I should wait for them, but I don't have anything to do while I am waiting...

Yea....I'm really bored right now.

ahh!!!!! i'm in such a god mood right now. but i'm kinda tired so i need something to keep me going through the night cause i have money, gas, a little alcohol, and the apartment to myself!!!!!! amber should be on her way soon, latoya is gonna call me when she gets off work, and bethany and alex might stop by later, so YAY! i'm very happy right now ( Read more... )