See again I see myself thinking about Justin! Why!? I thought this bullshit was over, but it hurts. It does. Relationshit. I want to see my dogs. I miss them so much. Maybe I'll call and see if I can come and see them. This sucks. I wish this would go away.

Yeah so as of right now I am totally doing everything in the moment. I dont mind the lifestyle for right now, but not forever. It is actually coming to an end this little phase because I have seen that my actions hurt people. I never meant to hurt anyone, but it happens. I just pulled the same bullshit he has a million times. I cant justify myself ( Read more... )

I saw Justin yesterday and he seems to be doing better. I think we are both doing better. I did get a tad bit jealous though when I found out he had a date. I'm happy for him of course, but still. He was mine, all mine at one time and now he isn't. I don't have anyone and its okay. I like this casually dating thing. I don't have to answer to anyone ( Read more... )

I really hate this feeling of really wanting something I can't have. It's so in my reach, I can taste it right there if only I could.... uh!!!!! It's the most frustrating thing ever! That and trying to write these damn fucking papers! I hate essays. Hate hate hate essays. This new online class I am taking is hard. It is really time demanding. I am ( Read more... )

Today I got a call from someone I did not want to hear from. Well, I would have wanted to hear from him if he had something positive to say. The things he said were really hurtful and they cut me pretty deep. He was so wrong. So wrong in so many aspects. So so so many aspects. Whatever. Just whatever. I don't know where my life is going. I don't ( Read more... )

I'm moving into my new house today. My roomates are as follows. Hottie Gerzan, and lovable Lyndsy. I'm so excited! My own house! My own life! I have to answer to no one. No parents, no boyfriends, and no annoying friends. Today I feel great. Just great.

So life has been going pretty awesome lately. There are two great people who have just seemed to fall in my lap. There is Tagen who is a wonderful addition to my life. She seriously is the right part of my brain and I'm the left to hers. Yeah, it's great. Then, there is Gerzan. What a cool fucker. I have to say he's pretty fucking hott, and a great ( Read more... )

I'm pissed because my car's stereo got jacked along with my cd's and the new RED HOT CHILI PEPPER albums. Uh they are so good. All the songs. All! Yesterday was not a good day. Hopefully today is better. I need to stop doing drugs!

I haven't written in so long I feel awkward when I try to start. The days have been pretty good lately. I should say nights instead of days been I am awake during the nights more than I am during the days. For everyone who doesn't know I am officially on the market again. I'm having fun enjoying my freedom and my youth. I'm not going to lie and ( Read more... )

I am single and ready to take on all obstacles thrown my way. My job is good, my friends are great, and I am really pretty fucking happy. It feels like a huge block has been llifted from my spirit. I smile again and love it. I of course miss Justin. Its been a week now, not quite and already I am blossoming. Everyone at work loves me and are ( Read more... )