如果將一幅畫的框框逐一去掉, 就能夠欣賞無邊無極的風景.

我是個習慣為圖畫加上邊框的人, 其好處是具有中心點. 不管再怎麼紊亂, 也還有個極限.
壞處應該是呆板, 沉悶, 一成不變, 以及太多的自我設限.

而如今, 我正在一一將框框除去, 帶著些許恐慌, 一點猶豫. 
這股勇氣並非來自本身, 而是對他的信賴.

將目前這一幅畫拆了, 並不代表往後我將在無框境界自由遨遊. 
誰知道,一番解構後, 也許很快地, 我就忙著把新的畫上框.
至少換了另一幅風景, 我這樣阿Q地想.

今天在 '每日箴言' 里讀到一篇關于愛的定義的文章. 何為愛? 生活中的總總, 包括媒體, 常常灌輸對愛的錯誤觀念, 以致有些人認為愛是某種"對我 "有益的東西. 這樣的愛只是一種慾望, 是追求自我的愛. 然而, 真愛應該是怎樣的呢? 不是基于自己的慾望或利益, 而是去關懷一個人, 這樣的愛, 當然會有"舍己" 的成分在里头.

这样的"舍己" 成分有时意味着舍去与对方在一起的欲望, 成全對方的幸福. 我想起一個朋友對我說過的話, 沒錯你是很愛這個人, 但是他並不是'適合'你的人, 不是'對'的人, 你也只能放手.

這是一個非常真實卻很殘酷的事. 開始很痛苦, 後來領悟到那並不會比兩個人勉強在一起互相折磨來得痛苦.

每天清晨駕著車在黑暗天空底下的公路上, 前面後面以及右邊跑道總有許多奔馳的車輛. 這時候不禁想起牧師曾經如何形容這一幅情景. 他說非洲草原上的羚羊在一天的開始就要拼命的奔跑, 因為後面的獅子在後頭不停的追逐. 羚羊為了保命而奔跑, 獅子也為了生存而奔跑. 這個畫面從此根深蒂固印刻在我腦海里, 感覺自己就是那羚羊, 天微亮就不停向前跑, 生活的重擔猶如獅子總在後頭追趕. 日復一日, 不斷重複.

這是怎麼樣的生活啊, 並且, 這樣的生活造就了怎麼樣的我們? 那羚羊, 習慣了每天天一亮就要不停奔跑, 漸漸這已轉為本能, 或許有時候即使獅子沒在後頭, 它也兀自奔跑. 忘了起初為何奔跑, 剩下的只有盲目忙碌.

當我抵達辦公室, 未走近大門就聽到兩個人大聲激烈地爭吵. 這都會充塞著多少如此不快樂的人呵. ( Read more... )

They said there's no need to be sad when you fall out of love as it's the other person who lost someone loving him. You didn't lose anything precious as you lost someone who doesn't love you.

That sounds true if you focus on the persons.

If you focus on love, you should notice love is never lost even after the end of a relationship. Love springs ( Read more... )

there was a news about a korean singer hanged herself in the newspaper yesterday. she is believed to have been suffering from depression. on her website earlier, she said she felt everything is empty and she was walking down a path to reach a destination that she didn't know. it saddened me and i was thinking how many of us have felt, or feel ( Read more... )

It's not easy to quiet down, free yourself of everything and just focus on interactions with god in praying. It's similar to receiving gifts from others. You have to learn to accept without burden, without worries how you are going to repay. I remember the uneasiness i felt when others treated me nicely and i knew i didn't repay them in the same ( Read more... )

I lay down on the bed around 7pm. Thinking that if i feel refreshed later i will go for cell group's gathering. When i woke up later, i was shocked to find it was already 11.58pm. It was so quiet then. I worried how was i going to sleep until the next morning after sleeping for these hours. I lay down after coming back from the toilet. When i heard ( Read more... )

Before the semester started, I knew of my heavy workload and I dreaded of having so many teaching hours. Hence my new year resolution: to go into all classes with a joyful mood, enjoy the discussion and time I spend with students, ensuring my students, if not find it enjoyable, at least think my class is 'endurable ( Read more... )

We overwhelm ourselves with all kinds of noise. Radio, TV, music, talking, laughing, moving vehicles etc. Whenever we are alone in a room we can't help switching on the TV or turning on the radio. Though we may not be really watching it or listening. Any sound will do. As long as we would not be attacked by the scary silence. We can't stand silence ( Read more... )

Attended a meeting of the church's publishing ministry on wednesday night. In the middle of discussing whether we should take over library under our section i was hit by sudden headache. Couldn't think much when they were asking that and anyone volunteers to take up the job. The second day when I reflected on the matter again, I felt amazed ( Read more... )