I don't like how emotions change on me, without warning, and there's no way I can be prepared for it. I shouldn't have lurked. I'm feeling so sad, so mad, so uncomfortable. I'd rather sit here and type out my heart than go to class. Just so someone would listen, the beaming light from my computer screen acknowledging that my thoughts and feelings ( Read more... )

 One day, you treat me kind and gentle, the next, you don't want to talk to me.

Why must you treat me so? Why do you bait and switch me?

Where is the consistency?

Why won't you talk to me?

:(

Dragoshi

I've gone through such a large step back in my maturity. When my father died, My confidence went with him. I've been going through the days one by one, really not sure of anything. I'm so full of "I don't know"s and "If you want to"s that my opinion amongst those I converse with has become near irrelavant. I go about the day, curled up in the fetal ( Read more... )

 They're lies.

I've learned something, and I'm writing it here so I don't forget. If you're going to be sad, tell it to someone who cares, or don't bring it up at all.

I miss my father's voice so much.

 September 8th was interesting. That's all I have to say about that.

I was going through my classes, wondering why I liked this semester so much more than any other semester. I realized that I only have one lecture class. Everything else is either hands on or discussion classes, which simply means that everywhere I go I'm expected to be involved. ( Read more... )

I'm starting to get past the culture shock I thought I wasn't going to experience when I returned to college. I'm comfy in my home, despite the fact that there's too much humidity produced by the air conditioning and my sheets seem like they were made out of rain coats. I love my bike, with a set of working gears. Most of my friendships are still ( Read more... )

I can't help wondering if I came here for the people, instead of my education. Real friends, real interactions, real feelings. It's just what I always wanted growing up. I was used to staying in a location for 2-3 years and then moving away from all the friends I had made. This is what I had wanted. Animation. Is it what I really wanted? or did I  ( Read more... )

I'm in Michigan right now, visiting my grandma. She's doing well, recovering fast, and although she was very sad looking in her stiff neck restraint, she was very happy to see us. I must get my ability to heal quickly from her, because she's been through far more than most people I've ever heard of. Anyways, she went to see a doctor for a check up ( Read more... )

I wonder, if I didn't have a heart would love pains go away ( Read more... )

Immersion. Everyone seems so inundated by what they do. I suppose that means I'm not the only person who forgets that relaxation is a part of life too. Something goes wrong and everyone panics! If this happens then this will happen and this will happen, followed by this! What we forget is that for the most part, we're not in a life or death ( Read more... )