there is no real way to ease into today's topics at hand. so i won't. i like chrissy. as a friend. i too enjoy her company. there is no way in hell that i would enjoy that company while sam was present. there are a lot of things i don't understand. i love sam but it hurts like hell sitting back an watching her be with chrissy. for an openn ( Read more... )

so sam told me yesterday that she was ready to date again. yes i cried like the stupid emo that lives inside me. naturally by human nature, what is the first thing that runs through one's mine when in my position? well i'll tell you what it goes like. i'm worthless. i'm nobody. if they had ever loved me why aren't we together. how could you move on ( Read more... )

stuck between a rock and a hard place... thats where i am. to break a promise where a life is not being saved deems one's word unworthy. honour the respect that one has for you. you are worthless without the people around you. respect them back. don't be selfish. sacrifice and humble yourself for their happiness. if you can't, it wasn't love. but ( Read more... )

i may not be the most selfish person in my circle of friends. but i am pretty selfish. granted, most people are. but some don't even realise it. you have to tell those people.

i don't mind some things. but others i can't stand. i am lynn and sam is me, i'll never get over it or her. and she will never want me back. but i still try.

materialised an surface things. those are things sam always gave me, she gave a lot go that department. and she still does help me way more than she needs to really. when there was love it was awesome. other than that it slacked

i think that as of right now, the best thing to do is leave town. like really leave town.

i may want to fuck but not that bad. that just makes me angry an my blood boil. i'd rather play with myself than fuck some whore.

so i believe that i shouldn't have gone against my gut in the beginning. we should have never moved in with joe. and roommates more than one person is just plain stupid. fuck me. i'm retarded.

i'm an emotional mess. in more than one way. i just don't know anymore. dinnae ken