its been such a long time since i have been able to update..right now i moved and do not have the internet working..even tho it is being paid for..long story..

anyway, i guess i am alright.... blah. i am gonna go actually..bye...

i went to go see bright eyes on sunday. it was amazing...as usual..i think that was my 4th time..it's so weird..i feel like i "know" conor. haha. i am nuts..anyway...i love him..and when i listen to him...its usually cuzz i am doing some deep soul searching..and tis true...i am really sad, depressed, uncertain of myself, and just overall, quisitive ( Read more... )

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boston sports are on fire!!

this pats game is just amazing.

let's hope the sox can tie it all up tonite!!

<3

ugh. my life is a huge mess. i am on brink of so many changed..career..maybe a living situation.....who knows,..even my relationship. i love chris and i love being with him. he isn't sexual or romantic at all..but he cares for my well being and it shows. and when i am with him i feel at peace and relaxed..but when i am not i feel lonely, depressed ( Read more... )

oh man. i worked 12 hrs today while hungover as fuck. on my way to work, i couldn't tell if the poles were poled or people. lol. then my boss gave me more booze to sober up..3 different ones haha. since i had to work a double today, i told myself that last night woudl be my 4th. so i came home at 11 and drank 20 beverages in a matter of 3 hours... ( Read more... )

happy bday cj!
and also.
deftones will always fucking fulfill me.
especially around the fur.
such a sexy cd. <3

for the past week i have been working with students with autism. this is only a week long thing, since the lady who supposed to be doing the job i guess is still teaching at her other school. i am getting along really well with the other teacher, since she is my age and all. we are doing things really well together and we have similar personalities ( Read more... )

why can't i not be sober?
there is something seriously wrong with me.

today was the last day of school and it was quiet emitional for me. i am going to miss those children so much. they all mean so much to me and i know for a fact they have changed me for the better. they have lightened my spirits and shown me emotions i never knew i could feel. i have never been much of a children person, but now i know where my ( Read more... )