i hate livejournal right now.

right now i feel like shit. i am so confused about life...i just want to explain to someone about how i feel and i want them to understand how i feel

but i know that will never happen.

nin for life

sigh....being home makes me really sad..my mom makes me soo sad..she is always soo god damn drunk and miserable.. my poor little brother..i just want to go and pass out or die or something...sigh..

i am glad that i made the decision that i made...it was a long time ago and felt right..things just needed to be done. i had more to see..but now i know that i miss you and your company...and i know that i messed things up too much.. that you will most likely never forgive me..but if you gave me the chance i would really like to start again..fresh ( Read more... )

oohhh how i love live music..
and ohh how i love modest mouse.
soo awesome.
every.fucking.song.brings back lots of beautiful college memories.
ahhh <3 ( Read more... )

It is a beautiful day out and I am stuck here in my miserable room. I only have $7.00 to my name, and that is quite depressing considering I have 2 jobs. Not to mention that I am a college graduate who has a crappy lifestyle, no friends, no dental or health insurance, and just nothing to show. I am in so much debt that I can't even change my god ( Read more... )

this is gonna be a brighy eyes kinda day.


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who would have thought i would be crying on my last day at the movies ? i am just so sad right now. because i have met a lot of good people working there..i have formed friendships with some of the managers that it's not easy to walk away from...but the truth of the matter is is that i need to be making more money..and i also need to get health ( Read more... )

there are so many shows i want to go see.
so far i have tickets to modest mouse and saves the day.
but i do not have tickets for:
diecast, bright eyes, deftones, or cursive..sigh!! i am soo poor but i really would love to go!

also....i love kitties! bahbi is so damn cute i love her soo much :)

i want to go out and have fun......ahh!!

what ever happened to thursday? they were soo good..are they still around ( Read more... )