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for some reason a few weeks ago when I was watching the History channel, and they were doing a show on theories of the beginning of the universe, and they mentioned that someone had calculated it to October 14th, in the afternoon, for some reason I thought it was interesting enough to note the date in my calendar but not who did the calculation ( Read more... ) -
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there's a scenic art apprenticeship in Connecticut that I really, really want.
I hate it when I really, really want something. for some reason I find it paralyzing.
finally got the resume together, and am now working on the cover letter...agh...I'm not good at this kind of thing. painting I'm good at. applying for jobs...
bleh. -
why can't I sleep during normal night hours?
even my California friends have stopped emailing back -
dammit!
I'm going to have to add friends in Japan -
there is nothing to report...
the snow is melting
gray slush everywhere
cats are being obnoxious
I'm growing fond of the neighbor's little fuzzball
but still hope he comes back for it
(really don't think he will)
moving on Saturday
in the meantime...
writing
watching movies
playing on the internet... -
friday is better. but there should be pizza.
My roommate Rachel moved out yesterday. I had No Idea it was going to make me so sad. For a long time I enjoyed living by myself - but this place feels so empty without her. I love that girl - she is silly. There was a lot of giggling ( Read more... ) -
oh, good lord
the Merciless "Send" Button
it has no forgiveness.
gah.
my confidence will always be a facade.
you are the few who know what a limp-spined, consistently insecure creature I really am.
My LJ friends.
what would I do without you?
(probably resort to the old-fashioned variety of penpal, but that takes So Long!!!) -
while "La Vie en Rose" is not a perfect film...
Marion Cotillard rocks my world.
Seriously.
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right now
everything hurts.
i dont' know what else to say.
tired of being alone - of being unworthy.
it was supposed to get easier. after adolescence. after The Turbulent Twenties.
it's not getting easier.
it's just getting lonelier. -
that part of you
My friend Cory put it perfectly the other day -
"You know that part of yourself that you don't get to use when you're single? I miss that part."
My best parts exist in relation to other people. I don't think this is dependence. I think it's just...I think that the capacity for love is the best part of every person. -
erm... feeling paranoid again...
you know when you post something and you have No Solid Reason to believe that someone who is not even on LJ might have read it, and yet you're convinced that they did and they're upset with you for it?
having one of those moments.
silence is not good -
wish I'd hear from him
(yes. him. hush - I can't help it.)