a lot to say,no definite way to say it. I have job interveiws and stuff to go to. So why do I still feel so low....

Well I have a lot to tell,but this might not be the place for it. So instead,I'll tell you some other stuff that's a lot less interesting ( Read more... )

I'm not quite sure what I'm feeling at the moment. Today was a typical day though aside from one thing. Well seeing as how I'm getting sick again with my mystery illness,I've been growing pale. Well I've taken matters into my own hands,and dumped down some money to start going to a tanning salon. I feel more comfortable with myself when I'm darker ( Read more... )

Tonight/morning is officialy lived to the music of SLAYER. poor grammar or not....

the absolute best metal record of all time:

SLAYER-REIGN IN BLOOD

hell yeah...

sorry,but I'm in a death metal mood right now after hours of slower music.

So no thanksgiving for John. Parents are out of town,grandma is off to see my dad's ex wife that she loves to praise and talk about like she's her own daughter. So I'll be in the apartment alone with bare cupbards. That's a-ok though. I'd preffer some ultimate John time alone. I'll finally get to watch tv again and have say in what I watch. No more ( Read more... )

How am I? I don't really know. I'm just sort of...here. I'm inbetween moods. It's like I'm disapointed,and fulfilled. Low,and high. I feel kinda crappy,but I also feel pretty good ( Read more... )

the last few days with crys have been a trip...she tried to kill herself...reason...wont tell me...well she told me over and over again how much she loved me he past couple days,and wants to be with me. Well....last night and today,she can't stop pointing out all my flaws to me. Well thank you very fuckng much,cunt. Needless to say,I'm fucking ( Read more... )

Today has been quite different. I'm actually confident about my future. I have no idea where I'm headed,but I know I'm back on track with the job search again. I went out today like a livewire,ready to snatch up any job opportunity I could get. Sadly,every place I went was swamped with people,so I didn't get any apps. Tomorrow is another day though ( Read more... )

I'm tired of being so damn emotional and shit. I'm not the pussy I come off as these days. Not that there's anything genuinely wrong with feeling pain,sadness,or confusion. I just want no part of it. I don't like taking the spotlight,or being pittied. I just want some damn happiness in my life. I want to feel whole,and complete in every sense of ( Read more... )

Well,I'm anxious to start living my life again after the last week of shit with Crys. I don't know what's going on with that,but for today...I just don't give a damn. I'm all about life. My music...everything I am. Speaking of music,one of the bands got back to me today,they still have a few more people to check out,but said so far I'm definitely ( Read more... )