<333 ive decided, that this journal - needs to be retired, im not going to delete it, because there is so much in it that means something to me - but, im definitly not going to continue to write it in. the point in my life has come, where i have decided to throw out the past - and along with that, goes the memorys. i will add you who i beleive give ( Read more... )

I had this long talk with treavor last night, about trust - and how im completely petrified of it now, because truely when someone promises you something...and goes against it, what are you suppose to beleive? and well..who? - i dunno, im gonna be ok - i realize now that this is it, and to him - it doesnt matter. ofcourse it matters to me, it ( Read more... )

im getting to that point that i dont
even feel like writeing, its like..
theres so much on my mind, and yet
i cant even begin to explain it all.
what ever happends, it will change
soon, because either i am let go..
or i am held onto.

i love you all
<3 lydia ( Read more... )

i think i may have realized something
that could help me greatly, who knows.
ive got a cold, and i feel sick, i love
you all
<33

ps. hows life in the hood? {random gang sign} lmao

<33

i wear my hair down, just the way you like it.
i drink doctor pepper because it reminds me of you.
i love you, just the way u i used to.


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My head feels calm - and very determinded. my grandfather is in the hospital, yet hes in Az right now - and were still here in michigan. im really scared. scott is, ..not scott - not even close to himself, in any way - he needs me right now, but i really need him too. i dont think he realizes that, someone truely needs him. friday was boring, i got ( Read more... )

elayissex: josh what if u were with some girl..and while u were haveing sex..she shit all over your bed ( Read more... )

i cant stop crying, my eyes feel like their on fire. i feel nothing, apsolutely nothing. i talked to scott, and mostly the truth was told - ive done nothing...hes depressed, he feels like he has nothing in life...im trying so hard, im trying so fucking hard. i feel like a mess, i cant concentrate - cant think, i dont want to be anywhere. i just ( Read more... )

at the moment ive got a highlighting cap on my head, so i can put pink streaks in my hair. i think in a few im going to go watch life as a house. i FUCKING LOVE - that movie. i dunno what im gonna do this weekend, me and ashley might do something - i might hang out with K, - who knows. my stomachs kinda upset - im so sick of eating fast food, ( Read more... )