Sigh, things have just been so odd lately. I had another one of those dreams, except this time it was a little boy. He had Brian's eyes and cheekbones and my nose and jaw. Brian was playing with him and running around. The little boy was squealing and laughing and Brian was pretending he was a monster and clomping around being all silly. He was ( Read more... )

Some days I feel so alone. I don't know what's wrong with me lately. Brian's here and usually we're happy together, but when I"m sitting by myself, I just feel so cold inside. I've not been eating, only on days when I have to donate plasma. I just don't feel hungry otherwise. I don't mind. I take vitamins so I can keep awake and healthy. Maybe I"m ( Read more... )

Well, I went in for my post abortion checkup yesterday and it was sort of.....odd. After waiting naked from the waist down for about twenty minutes, he came in, asked about bleeding and how I was recovering. I said it was fine, light bleeding, stopped after about two weeks. Then he asked if I was on any birth control and I told him I was getting an ( Read more... )

Just thinking about things tonight. I've been kind of moody lately, and kind of crazy with studying for the GRE and everything, but sometimes at night before bed, I still get what if's in my head. I just had the "it was OURS" though running through my brain. It was kind of a nice thought that it was part of each of us. Brian accepted my promise ( Read more... )

Blarg, I feel a little like suck. It's my birthday and I think I"m coming down with strep. I've got a fever so I"m calling to see if there are any other symptoms I can check for to make sure i"m not infected. Also, I've decided that I'm going to get a paraguard IUD. Four years on FAM with one mess up was pretty good, but I'd like not to have to go ( Read more... )

Well, things are going well. I started kind of bleeding a few days ago, but hardly anything to speak of. Some weird cramping sometimes, but it usually goes away after about an hour. I've been working my ass of though lately and I think the amount of stuff I've had to do lately has helped me recover a bit. When I get really busy, my body kicks into ( Read more... )

Well, it's all over. I had my appointment today and everything went fine. I was kind of worried from reading all these horror stories, but everything went really well. I got there and they had me sign in and it took a bit to get my bloodwork back from the lab, it hadn't gotten faxed up when it should have. Apparently I"m A positive. I was told ages ( Read more... )

Ok, I really need to relax. I"m trying to just chill out before bed and it's just not working. I've got to stop reading abortionstories Almost none of them are positive experiences and I know that most people only will take the time to write something if they've got something to complain about, but it still doesn't help. It doesn't help that everywhere I look I ( Read more... )

I can't believe tomorrows almost here. I feel a lot better about everything now. I had a good cry on Boy's shoulder yesterday and I"ve felt so much better since. He just held me and told me it would be alright and he'd take care of me. I really relaxes me to know that I"m going to have someone to be there. He's going to drive me home too. I"m ( Read more... )

I can't believe how scared I am. My appointment is monday morning and I just feel so apprehensive. I really hope everything works out alright. Before this all got going, it was a bit easier to deal with, but now that it's actually going to happen, and SOON i'm getting really nervous. I've never had any form of surgery at all before. I think it's ( Read more... )