Journal entry; because I want to, but am too tired to make an 'ok' one. 5 days, 6 nights now, only 5 hours of sleep in that time, not in all one attempt. I. Am. Tired. Friday, come quickly. I'll be happy. I'll hate work to a super degree. But when it is over, I'll be super happy. Until then... uhhh... I need sleep. I will try and get some in about ( Read more... )

I know not many people really much read this. I have a hard and odd question. I was thinking today about my funeral. I was wondering what would be said about me. If you were to say something about me at my funeral, what would you say?

This morning is a struggle. But I live how I believe.

Ick. I feel... Dazy... Not good like. I keep blanking out, but instead of it just being a blank blank, it is a sad blank. I just... feel down. I feel disconnected. I feel lost. I feel like I belong on the floor right now. I don't know why. But I feel kind of crappy. And I am trying to fix this, but the blank feeling keeps taking me over. Like I can ( Read more... )

Well, I don't know quite what much to say right now. I just kind of got the feeling to make a livejournal post. It wont do any harm. I am pretty sure of that at least. Today is a really nice day outside. 58 Degrees right now. I just realized how funny the work degrees looks with a capital "d." And just now how funny that word sounds. I sound pretty ( Read more... )

Oooh, I miss you!!

"Long evenings full on longing
Low-spirited my mornings
Full of longing too my nights
And all times the bitterest.
'Tis my lovely I long for
It is my darling I miss"

Amorphis - Elegy

And so I was thinking to myself, "Silly shirt, 7 is better than 6."

Today, despite my efforts and attemptive thoughts, was a horrible day. It really sucked. I hated it. It was another very depressing day. Even Wrestlemania could not save my mind or feelings. But upon getting home and going on-line. Things got so much better. My night became great again. And I feel loved, and like I will actually be able to sleep ( Read more... )

Mudvayne - Happy ( Read more... )

Well, today/yesterday (The 1st.) Kind of sucked for the most part. I didn't even do anything for the "fools" part of the day. I currently miss Melissa like there is no tomorrow. I have been more than tempted to just leave and go up there and see her. Actually it boiled down to the point of, if I only had cash on me, I would be on my way there right ( Read more... )