I've been really emotional lately. There isn't a rational explanation for any of this, I think, but it's pretty intense. I've been reading a lot more, which is terrific, I've been unsure of my job, which is normal for me, I've been super-affectionate toward my gf, which is also great, but little triggers are setting me off and I'm feeling on the ( Read more... )

I've been reading "Sophie's World" and enjoying it (Thanks, Default!) and realizing that I want to go to school for the sake of it. It's too damned bad that real life gets in the way of that which you'd like to do in order to grow as a person.

I'm not entirely sure I want to cook anymore. I like cooking, but honestly, I look around, and I see people like me are sous chefs, I know a couple of chefs, and then the field disappears-- what happens to all of those driven, talented, ambitious cooks who worked their way up the ladder for a bit? Is it really such a huge gap between sous chef and ( Read more... )

I've been having some weird dreams, some nightmares. I saw "The Time Traveler's Wife" yesterday and even though I read the book, even though I knew what was going to happen, even though it wasn't the most perfectly adept at extracting emotion, it totally got to me. I was a misty-eyed little girl at the end. I mean, there are parts of the book/movie ( Read more... )

This has been one of the most emotionally exhausting days of my entire life.
At least as of 39 minutes ago it is over. My sister is now a mother, my personal life is in semi-turmoil, and my professional life is still murky.

This is the shit journals were made for.

wet sand? no. ten years or so-- yes ( Read more... )

It was weird--
it wasn't a good movie, but I felt laughter being almost involuntarily ripped out of my body by the extremity and absurdity of the situations presented.
Painful, but sort of worthwhile. Very well paced, if nothing else.

I wonder how life would be different without headaches.

ok one more thing ( Read more... )

So my gf is gone for a couple of days. I am working, and I got 2 cookbooks so I am fairly well entertained. I need to find someone with laptop expertise, because I want to see if my Dell can be salvaged, but Microcenter wants 2 weeks and $70 to even look at it. I don't blame them, but if it's a total loss, I don't want to add $70 to the total loss ( Read more... )