well, took me for fucking ever to find a parking spot today. i spotted carolyn's car, and was hoping she would show up so i could take her spot, but no luck. so i drove around and around looking, and then i found a spot. how interesting. well, this class should be pretty interesting... the physics of music. if i get out early, i would like to ( Read more... )

so i am sitting here in sh 128 (steinhaus hall room 128) at uci, waiting for my 12:30 class ( Read more... )

so, now that i have my photo albums online, a few people have mentioned to me that carolyn is a really beautiful girl ( Read more... )

well, i just had a 75 minute conversation with monica (and jeremiah and alee interspersed). i explained the whole new situation and got a very good new idea in my head after something monica said ( Read more... )

i think the hardest time i am having dealing with this whole new light on carolyn's current life is that she is knowingly doing this to herself. one of my last entries placed the blame solely on kyle, and that is not completely fair. yes, kyle is an asshole. yes he is completely fucking gone. yes, he is taking advantage of someone he is ( Read more... )

my friend just sent this to me. each month describes the kind of person you are. i guess mine kinda works. anyways, here you go ( Read more... )

well, i wasn't going to write about this before, about the haunting things that nicole told me about, but i just started thinking about them and i figured that i might as well start writing and think about them this way. here goes ( Read more... )

well, i just had lunch and a good talk with nicole. she relayed some haunting information about carolyn's relationship with kyle, and about carolyn in general. it made me feel quite strange, but in the end, i just had to let it go. i feel extreme pity for carolyn, because she is so lost and she doesn't know it. it's so hard to let go, but it's ( Read more... )

well, after a request from anne at work to see some pictures of my life (since she has learned so much about me from my journal) i have posted most of the pictures pertaining to my life (with/out) carolyn in the past 3 years. below is the link. enjoy/don't enjoy, comment/don't comment. this was and is all done with .mac, and it took me about 30 ( Read more... )

cooking and waiting on and taking care of carolyn
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i've got a lot of love to give....
rodie