i can't do this again. it hurts 2 much. i love you 2 much ( Read more... )

if i knew what would happen i probably wouldn't be here. i've given up. everything seems so pointless. i haven't felt this low in so long. i'm trying to deal with it on my own, knowing that no matter how much it hurts me ALONE has become my everything. it hurts to feel. it hurts to cry. it hurts to breath ( Read more... )

(  The 80's Party @ Albion... )

You only have one life to live & sometimes I feel like every decision I make is wrong. I know what I want & I feel like everything is holding me back, including myself. I keep telling myself how I want to be done with school & have a career & my own place asap, but with the decisions I make i'm holding myself back. I don't feel like I can do it. I ( Read more... )

( Last Night Canada Pics :o) )

Whenever something bad happens you are the first person that I think of to reach out to. The problem is you're not there anymore. It might even be a good thing because when I do tell you things I know you are silently judging me & i'm ruining my chances of ever being with you. But at the same time no one can make me feel better the way you do. Why ( Read more... )

( Click To See Lots Of Pics From Canada Last Night! )

State was fun. I was so happy to see my Chels. :o)

I ended up making a mistake & calling asshole while I was there. He decided not to answer or call me back. I was pretty bummed out. I thought we were supposed to be cool with each other? You all should be very proud because I deleted his number out of my phone.

So tonight we all went over to Becks ( Read more... )

I was looking at old pictures just now... It's so strange because I'm completely different in all of them & I have changed so much. At first I was happy looking at them. But then I saw a picture of Jake, & pictures of people I never talk to anymore. It's so sad. Time just flies & your so busy you don't even realize all the changes taking place. I ( Read more... )

How can I be sick again!?!?! Grrr... My throat hurts so bad, I can't stop coughing, & I am so achy. :o(  Dr. Bill says it is majorly swollen & that I should get some antabiotics... Problem is no insurance!!!! So I had to have someone get it for me. Shhh....

Seriously get me away from boys... I'm crushing on everyone.... EVERYONE !!!!!!!!! I need a ( Read more... )