Hmm yeah and Im thinking about making my journal friends only.  Just a thought though I'll think about it a bit more.

Yeah Im sick, I haev a cold, I have gotten a total of 6 hours of sleep in the past 4 nights.    adn I had a huge test today that I dont think I did too good on.    It has been a really long weeek,

and I am deffinatly not ok

Its too late, nigts liek these its hard to stay alive.  Ive had too many nights with this feelign now.    Nights when I want to die, cant supress this feeling, these thoughts, this maddness inside my mind ( Read more... )

IF you only new how I was feeling inside.  The feelign that I need that razor, I need to feel that slow pull after pull accross my skin, that pain that comes with it, the parting of the skin and the flow of blood.  That steady flow, the continual leekage of that maroon beauty.    I feel so empty without this.  I feel like I have nothing here to ( Read more... )

I belong to a really cool support forum and they are currently on the search of good members, it Isnt pro SI ED or depression though, but if you are looking to try to get better I don't think their is a etter place to go to get peer support from people around our age.    Ask if you are more intereted and ill give ya a link or the site addy ( Read more... )

    Im in an odd state at the time being, I feeloutta it.  Sorta odd.  hmmm, my body is numb adn feels all tingly, no Ihavnt sied (yet at leaste if I keep feelin liek this I may end up)  trying to go through some other way to not SI, trying to distract myself, hmm maybe,  nah, nevermind ( Read more... )

( Just some poetry )

had a second set of staple put into my arm tonight, that makes 28 in the past 2 weeks altogether ( Read more... )

hmm yeah 2 hour councellor visits are always fun adn the rest of the dtuff that ill have to explain later

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!

I cant take this anymore everything its so much to deal with
I jsut want to die. :(

I cant kep going on when I feel liek this. It is too much

dont tell me how bad ya feel cause we all new it was gonna happen thats why I dont bother to count the days.