I can't..... 
I can't do this....
ok so all that is left from the hospital is no SI cause Im back to feeling SU

I just really need to end it all

First of all I'd like to appologize for not saying goodbye adn I hope nobody worried ( Read more... )

back from a week in the hospital

I wish I could help you all to understadn what goes on inside of me.  I dont want to feel like this adn I dont want to SI, but if another scar will keep me here another day then Im willing to make that sacrafice.    Yes Im on the road to recovery instead of SI eevryday its down to once or twice a week.    but the suicidal urges have gotten worse, ( Read more... )

what a fucking shitty day ( Read more... )

I want to cut right now so badly, 
Ugh I cant take this holding out and prologneing it for this long.  Bah I hate this so much

had a huge entry typed out adn them the browsewr crashed :(

i give up

*edit* I hate it when my mood just drops right off, Id swear it is the midnight shift kicking in or something, I got 11 hours of sleep in the hos so I wont be sleepign tonight, or probably tomorrow night for that matter.
hmm yeah time for me to try to stay away from pointy objects :(

hmmm yep

Hey so Im back from the hospital, yup yup.  Hmm if you are new to reading my journal I put how I feel and dont filter anythign so everythign goes on here, I dont change anyhting around or what now.    I should fix my background, it wasn Amy Lee, but it isnt anymore ( Read more... )

It's been another one of those days thta would have been spent better laying in bed, Ive jsut gotten sicker adn sicker as the day went on ( Read more... )

( Long ass entry lj-cutted for friends list conveniance )