inflicts me with a dagger, with your alluring eyes.
piercing me with your illusive warmth.
absorbing your radiance, my skin liquefies.
my heart stays frozen, untouched.

i was never a interest,
just a fantasy you made true.
FUCKED me over like a dream,
then you spit me out like used SHIT!
what m i to you...JUST A FETISH FUCK!

"walked away, heard them say,
posin hearts will never change.
walk away again.
walked away, in disgrace,
felt the chill upon their face.
walk away again."

since i was never the person to initiate anything. i didn't know how to bring up the topic of "us". so i thought to myself what better time to start than at 3 in the morning and through a internet message... i know thats completely tackless, but thats the only way i know how to be! after this incident, i will only hope for the best, and the ( Read more... )

jealousy plays a dirty mind trick with us, it yanks us like puppets, and drags us like rag dolls. but why do we let it in in the first place? even if it is the last person you expect to acquire jealousy, they will embrace it! just when you think you are almost home free, something is caught between your steps. can't i just receive something ( Read more... )

while i had nothing, i gasped a breath of desperation,
now that i have two much, i release relieve.

there is only doubt holding me to the ground.

love is in the air, but all i inhale is doubt.
what i saw was nothing, but its more than everything.
disscountinue the false fantasies, and start reality.
blessed with a curse, releasing myself by staying.

after a high you get low, and my low right now are my doubts. when my doubts kick in so does my self defense instinct. the past week has been speeding through faster than a roller coaster. i have had trust broken by people whom i thought were close friends, why would this be any different? trust has always been a big issue of mine, getting ( Read more... )

have i found my "plus one"? i didn't think it would ever be that easy. can a person be THAT sincere about another person, or is it just a fasaud? the feeling feels SO real, i m afraid. every thing that i am is appreciated, hopfully even my insecurity(ies)... the first person who broke through my wall of anti-trust will hopfully be my last. i ( Read more... )

i was just watching the movie closer, and it was really good ( Read more... )