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For all y'all who's been waitin'
My preliminary Christmas wishlist: 2007.
Nikon D40 -
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Cheapest I've found it anywhere is at NewEgg (follow the link). There is an additional combo package available, but, I'd die for the camera alone. I will be eternally in debt to whoever gives me this, if anyone, and would like to throw my soul up for sale beforehand, just in case.
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Hey hey, meaningless rant #2;
The times there are to think, I choose to write more. Yes, I've done a lot of thinking lately. A lot of thinking, not much writing. I see the dead spaces of my life more and more lately. Transition periods, times that I "just have to wait" for whatever outcome I have coming to me. Something so simple as a walk up the stairs, I think to myself, "am ( Read more... ) -
I don't like this game anymore.
I noticed, walking down the hall toward my room, that my footfalls were heavy and muffled. My shoulders were hunched, and I had a look of despair about me. I recognized it as I had seen it in other people before, perhaps not by the same cause, but the feeling was the same ( Read more... ) -
Yep. Don't read this, either.
You tend to re-think things. You just do. You find yourself bouncing back and forth between hope and despair, endlessly. With each new strength, you find a reason to doubt. You let the past serve as a lesson, maybe even a framework for the future, for what to expect, what not to expect, and what to fear. Counting losses before they're incurred, ( Read more... ) -
And again.
Makes me feel... something. So much undone, so much rediscovered, so close and so far. I cannot think to know what it actually is. So much as it is empty, it is full. It is dynamic, changing, always. Static in that, yet nicely flowing. To each peak, a valley, to each ocean, a desert. Always the blue sky, always the green grass, and it doesn't stop ( Read more... ) -
I do so very much wish
Why is so much of our emotional state dependent on other people? Why is so much of what we feel entirely outside our control? And it never changes. The names, perhaps, the people, but never the concept. How many times must I navigate the same details before I learn? Love. Yeah, that's just great. Good for me. The only thing I can do now is distance ( Read more... ) -
There's no answer, huh?
Here it is, so few days away. I'm sick with anticipation, but mostly pre-severance issues. Last night was the last night I'll be spending at Ashley's house for some time, and it's the last I'll see of herself and her family until that time is over. It's odd how I couldn't forsee this becoming an issue... but I found out today just how attached I am ( Read more... ) -
We've read all this before.
So, I started a new blog the other day, this time it's not to be kept as a journal. I'll be updating both, still, so don't worry if you think you're going to stop seeing my wonderful life updates pop up on LJ. This new blog is mostly intended to be an excersize in informative writing, I'll be posting my views and opinions on current and future ( Read more... ) -
Most memorable.
Went to a concert yesterday with Ashley. Big Day Out, headlining Korn and Evanescence. As a concert experience, it was kind of new to me, as we were seated in a pseudo auditorium balcony. I had to refrain from falling back on my more basic concert instinct and forcing my way to the front of the crowd. I'm not exactly one that people would peg as ( Read more... ) -
There's an A end, and there's a B end
I feel sick. Maybe it's because I haven't ate yet. Maybe it's because I'm going to college in little under two weeks. I had a dream last night, one of those dreams that you're absolutely convinced is reality, and that is too good to be true. But then it turned horrible, into some kind of nightmare realization of what, exactly, is wrong with most of ( Read more... )