eww i'm taking a break from my 4pg essay. i'm just about more than half ways done so i'm not really that stressed out anymore. i have like two more big paragraphs to write and then i'm somewhat done. then i have to try and pursuade my aunt to let me type it at her house since my microsoft office isn't working right now. i hate waiting until the ( Read more... )

ever have one of those moments where you just want to kick yourself in the ass for giving into something? yup

eh i'll get over it. must do homework.

blah blah blah i should be reading in preparation for a 4 pg essay due tuesday night but i don't wanna. let's see, this weekend i was forced to hang out with my little cousin which wasn't too bad because he's into "metal" or metalcore whatever. anyways, i got him to listen to better bands than atreyu. in the end, i think i burned him over 7 cd' ( Read more... )

i don't like school work. it magically put me in a horrid mood and i don't want to go out and see anyone.

maybe i'm just on my rag or something. i should go pop a midol and have a beer to balance things out.

it's good to be home. seattle fucking blew. it just wasn't metal enough for me cuz of all of the damn hippies. haha j/k for reals though, i've noticed that the more metal i get into, the less and less people there are around me in orange county that are into the same styles or eras i should say. everyone is obssessed with "metalcore" and ( Read more... )

i know i updated in seattle but i don't think anyone remembered who i am. i wonder if any of you do.........hmmmmmmmm........

wow it's been waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too long since i've updated. well i just moved to seattle, washington, about a month ago and things are going well. i miss home but that's about. there are alot of gay people up here so it's really weird but oh well. i'm getting used to it and seeing various kinds of gay couples at the stores. i'm just ( Read more... )

yargh i'm on my way to my aunts funeral. shitty
I picked up the habit of smoking agait. shitty
I've been sober for a month now. yay
I'm on a diet with my friend pam. shitty yet satisfying
i feel awful

aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh ( Read more... )

oh lord does sobriety blow right now. it's weird yet expected that all i have time for now is for thinking and thinking and blah blah blah. i can't stand it. i also haven't had a ciggy since wednesday night and that was really getting to me up until about today but i could sure still go for one right now ( Read more... )