i keep telling myself that i'm gonna update this shit but i forget. i'm tired right now but i remembered that i wanted to write in this so i figured i better do it now or i may not get around to it for a month or so ( Read more... )

we rocked last night. we had a good crowd reaction and although there was no room for people to actually "dance", i'm sure they would have if they could have. i was so nervous before we played that i gave into having something to drink with pam and i accidentally had a little too much and had to play drunk. christ got upset with me and got all ( Read more... )

oh fuck it. i'm not gonna let anyone spoil my day. i'm gonna play until my fingers bleed tonight up on stage. maybe i'll post a pic or two if all turns out well.

tomorrow is the big day. our first show with this line up and my first show with a band in over a year. pam's gonna go and she said that even jeff is planning on going. apparently she had dinner with him and his girlfriend tonight. funny how the queer best friend is never invited. so i was used...can't i get over it?...who treats people like ( Read more... )

yes it's true. i'm sober now. 1 day strong and that 1 day means alot. I've had the most horrible cotton mouth for the past few days as well and i guess i could attribute that to my drinking and how i get dehydrated and what not. i'm finally going to get back to working out and being mr. healthy. yes, i have much to look forward to.

so how's this for some shady fucking shit: so before the spring semester started, i told jeff i'd help him out in his physical anthro class if he needed it since it might be my major and he said cool. so time has passed and keep in mind that i haven't seen him since may of last year much less since i came out to him and told him that i was "in ( Read more... )

for once, my classes weren't half bad today. I seem to be making friends with this girl named roxanne in my history class but i think she's doing it to make this guy she used to talk to in class jealous. before spring break, she slipped him a note during our last class before she left early and this week when we came back from spring break, they ( Read more... )

yet another week has passed by lol it's not like anything amazing happens around here....especially in just a matter of a week. hmm one cool thing going on is at work. see, we have to fix up the lobby for the next show so that the art students can paint a new ugly picture and blah blah blah well anyways, i get to admire the nice eye candy in the ( Read more... )

damn it's been a week since i've updated this shit. bleh well let's see...i quit drinking and smoking because my alcoholism had me up against the wall a little too often and i'm financially broke and unstable due to it. I also quit smoking because i really don't need to smoke. i'm going through detox and yesterday was somewhat bad. I tried to ( Read more... )

well things aren't going so well over here in my pond. i spent last night with, but of course, jack and coke and I was trying to put the pieces together of this horrible jigsaw puzzle that is coincidentally my life. I found that many of the pieces do not fit together anymore and the ones that do are not ones that i'm used to. so what was on my ( Read more... )