why do i look at pictures of stuff that just get me really upset. fucking kristi did marty's makeup for halloween and i know that's a really stupid thing to be hurt about, but I can't help it. I hate this.

( thoughts stemming from grogginess... )

FINALLY ( Read more... )

( I have never appreciated a cut so much, I think others will really appreciate it too once they see this... )

( giddy up )

( yeah lists )

i miss dan. i don't know why...maybe i'm just really tired, but i don't think that's the only reason. i just want to feel him next to me. my lack of choice on this issue is and has been very difficult and frustrating. i keep having this dream that he is just here when i get home one day - not to re-kindle the relationship, but just for closure ( Read more... )

( Mental diarreah (aka totally not important) )

I did a lot of thinking today while pressure washing the back deck for 3 hours. I think it's time for me to write Pat a letter. Unfortunately, I don't have the balls to talk face to face, so this will have to do. suggestions welcome, editors needed.

( To be perfectly honest, I am only writing because I feel obligated and because someone is in the bathroom and I need my glasses so I am waiting. )