the best things in my life
remind me of the best pictures that i take
the best photographs are the ones i didn't plan
the ones i didn't see coming
where it was just like heyy! *click*
something caught my eye
just life caught my eye
not some set up still life 
because a still life isn't life it's just an arrangement of random crap 
that really doesn't mean ( Read more... )

 things are over my head at this point
i can't seem to not be anger 
being back in NY has been alot of harsh memories
i hate when my family says shit like "normal kids your age"
yeah, well fucking normal kids my age are getting loaded every weekend
but also last year when i was a normal kid...
i would put a fucking kneedle in my arm 
and hope that "this" ( Read more... )

no strings attached
it's funny how that saying seems to last
no strings attached
i used to think my head was filled with cobwebs
that you were wrong
that there is no light behind these green eyes
that it's empty space
that it's dead
but, as days grow
and nights pass
and my body becomes less patient with me
and i run around as if i'm real young
and my disease ( Read more... )

i sat in the bath today
watching the water fill up
and than go down the drain
completely dressed
i sat there completely dressed
holding my legs
just staring at the water which
filled to the top
and subsided
i tell myself it's okay to breathe now
it's okay to breathe
no one is watching you but me
you can breathe, Jean, you can breathe
so i let out the deepest ( Read more... )

well, i guess here goes nothing. i haven't updated this thing in forever. even that picture of me is from years ago. i haven't looked like that in a long time. well, i need to write an update that probably no one will read, but hey this is for me not you. i need to get this all out in the open, even though my 'great' thinking tells me to do so over ( Read more... )

i am the cancer of society
baby
let's eat this town alvie

"40 0z to freedom is the only chance i have to feel good even though i feel bad"

dont' go back out there
i convince myself
the best i possibly can
but some how 
i know that probably that line will make me feel better
and one day i'm 
hot the next i'm cold
i find myself
on the edge of it all
sometimes i just don't know

i'm so sick of feeling this way

p.s. fuck you

"i need you like water in my lungs"