I feel like I need to get back into the whole LJ thing to save my sanity. Writing things down really does help me, or so says my counselor, so I think I may have to get back into it. Oh, and I feel like I owe everyone an update that doesn't deal with a certain douchebag boy. Things have been going fairly well and I need to share that with my LJ ( Read more... )

so yeah, here is crazy, insomnia induced blog, enjoy it ( Read more... )

So for whatever reason LJ is not letting me get on, I blame my crappy internet connection out in the middle of nowhere which is where my new domicile resides. But any way, to the matter at hand, I need to write this down so I can read it later and decide if I am in fact overreacting or if I am being perfectly sane and should be a lot more hurt and ( Read more... )

Why is it that women have define everything? It seems that everything, especially relationships, have to be defined as something. For instance, you have to be dating, you have to be a couple, you have to be his girlfriend or he has to be your boyfriend. Well, what happens when I don't want to define a relationship? What if I think we are still in ( Read more... )

I wrote this last night when I was in the midst of an epic breakdown...I posted it to my myspace blog, but that is not the correct forum, so here it is in all it's unedited glory ( Read more... )

I am sorry for being moody, and whiney, and only caring about my lack of luck in the love department. It's the way it goes. I need to vent and I don't want to vent to my friends or family, I don't want them to see how weak and vulnerable I actually am, so here I write and vent and whine and show my weaknesses to only myself and those that care ( Read more... )

So here is an entry in list form, cause I love, love, love lists ( Read more... )

It seems that things have turned for the better in the last two weeks. I am happy, content, and just loving everything about life. Of course there was drama, my life always has drama, but this time most of it is not of my making, but rather just observations of those around me. It's been nice sitting back and watching the fireworks rather then ( Read more... )

ahahahaha, welcome back to livejournal Jessica...and welcome back to all the self pity and the self loathing that comes with it ( Read more... )

I got some news today that really felt like someone had smacked my head against a cement wall, not once, but twice, and then took any shred of self confidence I had and destroyed it in a brilliant blue flame ( Read more... )