this live journal is dead, there will be no future entries. goodbye.

i've been somewhat overwhelmed recently, but it's been my fault for allowing myself to be so overtaken by such things. nothing is lost, nothing is broken, nothing is missing. i guess that it shows how weak of a person i truly am, and how carried away i become when emotions are involved. it's difficult placing everything on the line, giving ( Read more... )

i thought that this was a feeling i wouldn't have to become familiar with again for awhile. now that the only thing certain is that i'm at a loss, i don't know what to do, i don't know what to say, and i don't know where to go from here. i guess that i should have predicted this, right? nothing can be as good as it seems, nothing is perfect, ( Read more... )

i'm going to drink until i cannot see, and somewhere inbetween smoke the three packs of cigerettes held captive on my car seat, and try to understand why i continue to fail at everything.

i cannot help but feel an overwhelming sense of failure.

it's been a wonderful week so far. i finished angels and demons last night, and it was very good, i had a hard time putting it down. i started a new book today and am about fifty or so pages into it, it's about turning suffering into joy, the buddhist way. i love it so far. it's basically saying that everything is only a matter of perception ( Read more... )

FHjustlive: i love you

and i couldn't be happier.

i'm guilty of having too much time to think lately, and this cannot lead to anything good.

today has been long, it's felt as though i've been pacing in the same circle for over a month now. i feel that i've finally found the holy grail, the meaning of life, the reason breath still escapes my lips . . . true happiness. i have been unable to wash the smile off of my face for awhile now, but tonight it not only washed away but became a ( Read more... )

no longer a question of the past ( Read more... )