Coming tomorrow some time. I'm tired and I spent a good portion of the night drinking and watching 80s movies ( Read more... )

I got up a little later than I wanted, but at least I'm not feeling too bad right now. Lately my right shoulder and arm have been aching, but that seems to be resolving itself slowly. I've still got to get ready and go a few places. Think I'm going to have a banana for breakfast and check with the Mapco people to see if my paperwork came back in. ( Read more... )

So, I've decided to try something out and see how it works. Instead of occasionally getting on here to scream about stuff I'm going to try and keep a record of the events of my life for the next thirty days. After this time I want to look back and see if I have made any progress towards becoming more like the person I want to be. This will start ( Read more... )

I was thinking, what makes a person who they are? Is it as simple as the perception of others, can one truly be exactly what he seems? Does the romance in ones heart play any part in who that person could be, does potential qualify for recognition? What about those aspects of a person that never seem to come to light, the parts of a person that ( Read more... )

I've let the anger and hate wash out of me, I'm sort of mellow and melancholy, and all I want is for the world to give me a break. That's all I'm asking for, just sometime where I don't have to worry myself sick or feel bad just for existing. I think I might be the world's favorite game, it loves to give me a minor solace and then tear it away from ( Read more... )

Right now I'm stuck somewhere between ready to tear my eyes out while screaming so hard I break my own jaw and cold emotionless machine. I don't know what the deal is with that, one moment I'm mad as hell and I'm not going to take it anymore and the next I'm so detached that nothing reaches me. I hate that feeling, the cold feeling, like I'm not as ( Read more... )

I don't even want to talk about it, I don't, I'm sick to my stomach with rage and hate. I will talk about the people I've seen today and how I'm terribly upset at my luck for seeing them. What has been seen cannot be unseen ( Read more... )

Right now I'm not happy and I'm not sad. I'm not really anything at the moment, just this sort of numb sensation. There are so many things I don't want to think about right now. I can't tell if my body is mounting some sort of defense against the deepening anxiety, but I can't really focus on those subjects that make me feel so twisted inside. I ( Read more... )

AT&T finally got around to telling me that they were no longer hiring for the position I applied and tested for, which to me is a dick move. I didn't even get an interview after going through all that bullshit for those fuckers. I'm about two seconds away from baptizing this world in fire for the seer amount of rage it generates in me daily. ( Read more... )

I lack in my life love. I don't have it and it tears at me daily. I find I fall so hard so often, face down in the mud, because I have no one there to catch me and no reason to care to stand. All of my jealousy and rage, all of my stupid hang-ups and moods come directly from my frustration with me solitary life. I know I have friends, but it's not ( Read more... )