So here's the deal... Tonight sucked. This week sucked. This month... oh wait... this year. Sucked. And this is my thought process ( Read more... )

why does it have to flashback to you. constantly.

Kind of what I feel like. But honestly... isn't that what everyone posts about on LiveJournal? Whether someone will read this or not... suppose it doesn't matter. This is for my sanity ( Read more... )

It's my birthday. And my party.

But... I'm not crying because I want to.

I don't know how exactly to explain what happened. Most people I tell don't really understand the magnitude of it. Caring and loving for a person for over a year and then finding a conversation like that totally takes over your emotions. I couldn't stop shaking, and I froze in my tracks. I didn't know whether I should have just closed out of it, ( Read more... )

And I had this genius plan tonight. To build you up, and make you fall for me so hard. To be everything for you. And me... Well... With everything I have... try and prepare for what's to come. When I eventually become that nothing ( Read more... )

A year ago today was the first time you told me you loved me.
Now you can't say it.

I need to stop drinking so much when i think about us.

I'm sick of making you a priority when you only consider me an option ( Read more... )

i feel like i'm putting myself out there a bit too much... when i know in another 7 months, we'll probably be at square one again.

i'm still having an issue with trusting you.

:/