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so here i am stressing the fuck out because i'm dumb enough to be living paycheck to paycheck at 32 and my parents have a $800 toilet seat. the damn thing does about everything but wipe for you. it hoses you off, front and back. it's heated. it deodorizes ( Read more... )

Even though it was short, I had an amazing weekend in Portland with my friends and my grrl. It was a blending of many portions of my life. My friends, my ex-grrlfriend, my new unlabeled one. And I had a blast ( Read more... )

have you ever felt like you were drowning in a sea of uncertainty?

why is it at 32 years of age, i can't seem to get my shit together any better than i have?

my head is barely above the surface.

and i'm a damn good swimmer. shit.

I rang in the New Years the only way I wanted to.

Surrounded by some friends.

And in the arms of a beautiful woman.

Simple as that.

This is the time of year where you look back and see what you accomplished and where you failed in the last 12 months. I've learned alot this year about myself. I think I'm still rolling through a (albeit mild) mid-life crisis right now, but I've spent months second guessing just about everything in my life. This includes my job, my car, my ( Read more... )

I have been accused of having a.d.d. when it comes to housework.

guess it might just be true.

'specially since i'm posting this blog, when i'm supposed to be emptying my dishwasher, sweeping my floor and throwing away a bunch of junk.

oh and i'm watching a movie.

yep. it sure is true.

what the fuck?!?

we are not friends.

nope nope nope.

remember that.

i have got to work on not fucking things up. it suddenly became aware to me that my recent mood was not related to my need to protect *myself*. but rather my need to protect her from me. and it's all i could do to not do that. because that would mean running away. and that's not fair. and so far from what i really want ( Read more... )

So today the Department of Interior has decided that LJ is an appropriate website to access. How exciting for me. Today.

Something tells me that they're going to find out that I can get on here. So they'll shut down the door again. And I'll be stuck in my land of no outside access.

Hmmm.